The BNB

Car rides

Hot Doofus
Hey your brothers coming over to pick me up inna little bit.
You gonna come with him?

Strawbaby
Hmmmm

Hot Doofus
Its ok if you don't want to

Strawbaby
Nuuuu nu nu I do, trust me I really do...
I'm just worried that it might seem weird if I ask to go and stuff since Ive only known you for like a total of what? 6/7 days now?
Idk... Just dont wanna seem sus or whatever.

Hot Doofus
I get it.
Your fine.
I just miss you is all....

Strawbaby
Hmmmm
I could.... Say that I just want out of the apartment!
They know I get stir crazy all the time so its totally believable!

Hot Doofus
Awesome.
See you then<3

Strawbaby
Cu! <3

We've been texting all week since both of our parents only want him to come over on weekends. In this time Ive learned so much about his personality and I now believe whole heartedly that it would be impossible to convince myself to end this horribly wrong thing that we have.

Thats not to say that Im okay with it. Anytime Im talking to him on the phone late at night and he says something to make me giggle I wonder in the back of my head; Does makes his girlfriend giggle like this? If he makes her this happy? If he has her why does he need me? Why isnt he talking to her right now instead? Am I ruining a relationship or is it already broken? What am I even doing?!

And it just keeps going until he pulls me back out of my thoughts with the worry in his tone while he asks if I'm ok or if I'm still there. Of course I always force a little giggle and say something like, "Oh sorry I must have dosed off or something." Or "my bad just got lost in thought. " And sometimes I'd even lie as far to say that my parents had walked in and that I had to pretend to be asleep.

There were many occasions already that I had tried to ask him about what we really were but Id always end up deleting it before he saw it. This of course led him to be worried and confused and me feeling guilty for being such a huge coward. I realise now that maybe if I would've asked those questions sooner- I wouldn't have ended up getting as hurt in the end, but I was too young, to naive, too blinded by the thrill of a new experience, to see the knife I was sharpening for my own back.

I guess I had thought this could be my chance... Going to his house to pick him up with my brother... See who he said hey to first? I honestly dont know what I was hoping to prove that day but I know this much... At the end of that day, I was even more conflicted and confused than normal.

As I climbed into the cramped back seat of my brothers beaten down car I questioned what I was even doing. So what if he says hi to your brother or you first? Why would that even matter? And so what if he doesn't sit back here with you? He probably just wants more leg room or something! There is absolutely no point in you being in this car right now so how bout you just leave?

*Bump*

Oh. To late. Lets just make conversation with bubby till we get there...

"Hey bro?" I ask over the wind entering the windows in attempt to get some air flow in the car.

"Whats up?" He asked glancing back at me in the review mirror.

"Can we get some music?"

"Sure. Just connect your phone cause mines tripping in this heat." My brother replied prompting me to start up a playlist of songs Id listened to with the BNB.

A short while later we pulled into a neighborhood and after a few wrong turns my brother parked in front of an average looking two story house. After a few more minutes the BNB came out looking upset about something holding his backpack, full of clothes.

When he go in after throwing his bag in the trunk he chose the seat in front of me and not beside me.

"Nice." He said indicating the music as be buckled up.

"You better like it! Shes playing it just for you ya'know!" My brother told him playfully.

"Oh really?~" The BNB asked wiggling his brows at me teasingly.

"Yeah dude. This is soooooooo not her genre. " My brother answered for me when I decided to remain silent.

WARNING. EXTREME PETTINESS WILL BE EXPRESS THROUGHOUT THIS BOOK.

After the current song ended I disconnected my phone and played my own music through my headphones instead. I closed my eyes and leaned my head against the door with a small sigh I didnt realise could be heard over the wind until I received a text about it.

Hot Doofus
Hey whats wrong?

Strawbaby
Nothing.

I replied before throwing my phone down on the seat beside me.

"Whats up kid?" My brother asked with an arched brow.

"Oh just that one internet friend I've told you about." I said using a story my brother had prior knowledge on to end the conversation.

"I keep telling you, he aint your friend if he treats you like that!" My brother snapped in a huffy manor.

"Who?" The BNB asked almost sounding jealous.

"No one." I growled before putting my headphones back on.

*vvvvt*

Hot Doofus
Did I do something?

Instead of texting him back I looked up and made eye contact with him in the side mirror and slightly shook my head. He then  gave me a doubtful look and reached his hand back between the door and his seat wiggling his fingers at me.

For a moment I just stared at his fingers contemplating if i should or not. I guess he gave up though cause he started pulling his hand back forward. I then leaned forward pretending to lay my head against the back of his seat and quickly interlocked our fingers. I stayed in that position with him rubbing the back of my hand with his thumb and slowly my eyes closed and everything but the feeling of his hand in mine faded away.

Hey guys, I know its been a bit but schools been hectic and so was the little five day long relationship I was in😅. So yeah sorry I haven't posted, lifes just been hitting me hard. Im doing my best and I hope you all enjoy this chapter. I woke up at 2 am this morning and found myself here so your welcome. I hope your all doing well and Ill see you berry soon.

Byeeeeeeeee~~~~~