Baby Taylor- A Magcon Baby story

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Hi guys.... I have been so inactive wow.... I hope all of you know how much you mean to me and I'm really sorry about my inactiveness this is the part where I'm going to tell you all what happened...
Basically , four months ago, I was diagnosed with PTSD. I had already been diagnosed with clinical depression, 3 types of anxiety, and three other disorders.
Then three months ago things got worse. I completely shut down. I went from a 4.0 to a 1.8 gpa. I was done. I gave up.
Two months ago I began to slit my wrists again. (No I am not sharing this for attention) I was done. I just wanted to die.
Last month I tried to take my life. I was over it all. I tried more than once. Then one day I was hiking with my two best friends, my boyfriend, and one of my best friends boyfriends. All the sudden I couldn't breathe (I didn't tell anybody what was going on) I had had many panic attacks and anxiety attacks before but nothing like this. This was different. I collapsed and began to bawl (I blacked out so this is what my friends told me) I was shaking and screaming "I just want to die. Let me die" I began to burn up so my friends took off my jacket (I was wearing a sports bra) and they saw EVERYTHING. Apparently my boyfriend broke down but just sat by my side and held me. I was completely shut down at this point and I couldn't move. He carried me all the way down the mountain and I was a mess. I was throwing up and hitting him and idk this is what I was told. His parents were out of town so we all went back to his house and he put me into his room. Him, I, and my friend and her boyfriend. I woke up at like 5am and he was just sitting by his bed crying. I was really confused on what had happened. I still have only the memories from when I woke up and from what they have told me. Well he immediately rushed to my side crying and apologizing. We just layer there for another hour or two and then I realized why he was sorry... He saw all my cuts. I hadn't realized it until then. I went to the kitchen and the other two were there. My best friend was so upset and I just broke down. They all made me promise to get help and the words of my boyfriend and my best friend
He told me "Brooke. I'm so sorry I couldn't help you. I'm sorry you felt like you couldn't trust me. No matter what happens I'll be here. Even when you need to be alone I'll be on standby waiting for the call. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if you died Brooke" ect. And my best friend said "brooke look at me. Look at me." She had scars too. " she these. They keep me going. They are my friends." Basically she did the butterfly project. "These keep me strong. They keep me okay and you need to believe it for yourself now..."
I went into rehab and I have been out for a couple days now but yesterday we tried the hike and we got to the top and this time it was my boyfriend and I and when we reached the top. They were all there (the people who went the first time) with little support things and yea. I've been inspired to go back to what what I loved the most which is writing!
If any of you guys EVER need anything... A shoulder to cry in or someone to listen to you.. message me on here! I love you all so much and it would kill me to have any of you guys feeling the way I felt.
I'm going to update all my stories as soon as possible!!!
Much love!!!
Brooke😘