A Black Fox A Black Cat (Cat Noir/Adrien X Aretusa Argent story)

[7] Loss

Aretusas POV:

I woke up in my nice warm bed, just feeling stiff and sore from the fight with Volpina last night. I tried to move out of my bed by taking it easy as something moved beside me.

"Hey darling." He said groggily. I looked to my side and gasped.

"W-w-why are you still here?" I stuttered out.

"I didn't want to leave you alone after what you've been through my love." Adrien says reassuringly and all I could do was nod at his response.

"Wouldn't your father get mad because you're not home?" I asked worriedly.

"My Father thinks I'm studying with Nino so it's okay. I have a decent enough excuse to do things." He chuckled. I sighed.

Adrien snaked his arm around my waist and pulled me against him.

"I love you, Mi Amor." He says reassuringly.

"I love you too, Minou." I kissed him on his lips.

~Timeskip~

Adrien and I decided to go out into the city as a couple. Ever since Ladybug found out who I was, I am on strict 'don't be Rainer unless I say so' rule. I'm happy with that but also not because then I can't spend time with the love of my life and save the city from Hawkys akumatization. I guess I can live with it.

"So, what do you want to do together as like officially as a couple?" I questioned Adrien.

"I do have a surprise for you at the park that I think you'll love." He says happily.

I'm suspicious and I really don't like surprises. Does this kid even know me at all? 

"Mhmmm." I hummed.

"Oh, don't be like that, Mi Amor. You'll definitely love it!" He says reassuringly as we make our way to the park.

I saw what seemed to be a picnic rug on the ground with a picnic basket sitting in the middle of it. I looked at Adrien and he just smiled, guiding me to the picnic rug. We both sat down, and he grabbed the picnic basket then started laying out all different kinds of food. There was a cheese platter with about 5 cheeses and 2 types of crackers, all your healthy things such as carrot sticks, and celery sticks with 4 different types of dips for them. There were also 2 different kinds of soft drink too. 

We were having a great time where we started eating, making jokes and just talking about whatever comes to mind in general. I was so lost in my train of thought about what happened with Volpina and how I could stand my ground when she was so quick on her feet to belittle and betray me just to get Adrien to date her instead of me. Maybe Lilas right, maybe I shouldn't date Adrien because it'll create more problems than solving them, maybe I don't deserve to stay in this retched city that they call the City of Love when all it really is, is the city of curses. I swear I'm a curse to everyone and everything around me...

"Ari, are you okay?" Adrien asked worriedly.

"Huh? What? S-sorry. Was lost in my thoughts again. What were you saying my dear?" I stuttered. 

"What were you thinking about, Mi Amor? That is if you don't mind me asking." Adrien questioned.

"Oh. Well, I uhm, maybe Lilas right that I don't deserve you and that I'm basically a curse to everyone I come across since being Hawkmoths god daughter and all..." I blurted out.

"Lila is a manipulator and a liar. She isn't the one here on this lovely picnic, you are. YOU my dear are not a curse to me or anyone around you. I don't care if you're Hawkmoths god daughter, you are not under his control anymore, you don't need to steal mine or Ladybugs miraculous' anymore. I love you and only you Mi Amor." He explained. I just nodded. 

He's amazing but I can't help think, that maybe I should just leave this city and never to return. Maybe go to a country I've never been to, such as Australia or something. I think that I need a well needed vacation from all these akumatizations and away from everyone for a while. 

"Adrien." I started.

"Yes, Mi Amor?" Adrien said.

"I can't do this anymore." I sighed and stood up.

"What do you mean, you can't do this anymore?" Adrien asked and stood up as well.

"Like I can't do this. I can't be a hero. I can't think straight. I can't do us any longer. I don't want to lead you on. I feel bad enough as it is. I can't be here anymore." I felt my eyes welled up with tears and started to run away. Run until I make it back to my flat. Run away from everyone. Just run.

Adriens POV:

As soon as she said she can't do us anymore, my heart shattered. I love Ari with my whole heart, I can't get her off my mind at all. She stood up and ran away. I tried to call her name and go after her, but Plagg popped out of my jacket and shook his head. I sighed.

"I told you kid, revealing your identity to her is making her want to leave Paris." Plagg said as he picked up a slice of camembert and ate it in one bite.

"I just love her and want to spend the rest of my life with her without all these akumatizations and Hawkmoth ruining the one chance to be happy for once in my god damn miserable life." I sniffled out. I was on my knees, crying and waiting for her to come back to me to which I know she won't because of the shit we've been through together. Plagg sat on my shoulder and patted my cheek in order to comfort me. I gave up and ended up miserably walking back home. Fuck the picnic that I have set up for her to be officially a couple to now a broken miserable day where no one is happy anymore. For now, on I will let no woman break down my walls and tear me down with their drama. 

Aretusas POV:

I managed to run to my flat, I got inside and locked everything. I closed my curtains everywhere. I needed to be alone, I don't need someone to disturb me. I pulled out my phone, unlocked it and started typing in airfares to Australia in the google search bar. I needed to get away from here as soon as possible. Zorro flew out of my jacket and saw what I was doing.

"Ari, are you really going to leave Paris when Ladybug and Cat Noir really need you?" Zorro asked. She looked at me worried, she does have a point I give her that. 

"I have to. I can't do this anymore. I can't be here when things go to shit. I can't be here to screw things up when it comes to the final battle between Hawkmoth and the 2 heroes. They will want me to pick a side and I know what happens if I ever chose my god fathers side." I sniffled and fell to the floor on my knees. 

I broke. 

I cried so hard that all I was doing is whimpering with no tears left to spill. Zorro flew over to my shoulder and patted me on the cheek in her own comforting way.

I went to my bedroom and laid down. I couldn't leave, not yet anyway. I can't leave Cat Noir and Ladybug to fend for their own. I need to destroy Hawkmoth and get out of this grip that he has been hovering over my own head. I need to fight for Zorro and for myself. I can't have a relationship with either Cat Noir or Adrien Agreste because then Hawky will have leverage over me and use him to get to me. I can't do that to him, not after what I just did. I refuse to back down.

I took out my phone and started texting Adrien.

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Me: I'm sorry I ran away today during our lovely picnic. I really appreciate the effort you put into it. We can no longer be together, I'm sorry, Minou. Goodnight and sleep tight.

Adrien: Thankyou and I completely understand, mi amor. Goodnight and sleep tight too.

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I sighed then threw my phone onto my bedside table and looked at my window that has my curtain covering it.

"I'm coming for you god father! That is a promise." I yelled out in hoping that he hears me.