what goes on in my mind

school atm

So I'm at school rn. I wanna go home so bad but obviously I can't. A lot of bad stuff happened at school in the last years, but I lost control over the situation long ago. It used to really get to me what those people at school said about me, but I can't change it soooo, yeah, I'll just try to make the situation as comfortable as possible for me right now. 

But I'm not here to make myself the victim of the situation. Everyone always feels like the victim. It's easier to blame others than to deal with yourself. But I figured it doesn't work that way, even tho it would be good for some of us. 

So here is what I learned, maybe I can help some of you with my experiences. 

Meditate. The solution can be right in front of our eyes, but we still don't see it. Don't be the person in the bad situation. Be mute and observe the situation. "Watch" the situations that you still can't stop thinking about. Don't relive it, don't look through your own eyes. You probably get it. Look at the situation, without being hurt by what happened. Be quiet and emotionless. 

Do that for about 10 minutes each morning or night. 

Journal. Write down any and I mean any thought that come to your mind. It doesn't have to be aesthetic and pretty, it's more about the act itself. 

If you are religious or at least have interest in religion, pray. It's a great way to get things off your mind. Apart from having a relationship to God, of course. You don't have to tho, I'm not forcing my beliefs on any of y'all. Just do what makes you happy as long as it doesn't harm you and/or others<3

Have a routine. Prepare your outfit for the next day, so you don't have to stress about it tomorrow morning. Clean your room and take 10 minutes each night to put away anything laying around. That way you will keep your room clean. And if it doesn't stay clean, that's okay too. There's good and bad days. Go to sleep a little earlier and wake up a little earlier. You can take 10 minutes of quiet time you spend only by yourself. I mean, you can also listen to music or something, it's your choice. I would recommend no music tho, so you can focus on yourself and get to know yourself a little better. A lot of people don't really know themselves. We have so many distractions, but you can't run away from your own mind forever. 

I'd say that's it for now, I'll try to update this a little more from now on xD Have a good day, I love you all<3

(Sorry if there are any mistakes, I'm too tired to reread all this.) 

<3