The Only One For You. || Pete x Mike [PIKE]

{~Chapter7~}

Warning triggering topics:
Child abv$3
Bad smoking habits
Talk of eating disorders

~PetePOV~

I stopped in my tracks at the realization, 'No. No, there's no way..' I thought before continuing "No, I can't like Mike Makowski.-" "Damn dude. You like Mike Makowski?" I heard someone say from behind me, I swiftly turned around and was greeted by, "KENNY?!" I practically shouted, 'I really need to check my surroundings more before I say stuff. Ugh lame.' I thought before Kenny continued, "Oh, yea, sorry if I spooked you or anything." "You didn't spook me conformist sh*t." I replied, "OH SH*T! WAIT, HOW MUCH OF 'THAT' DID YOU HEAR?!" I asked abruptly and stupidly as I already knew what he'd heard, "Uhh, well I know you like Mike Makowski?" Kenny laughed, "Ugh, lame." I said sulking and sitting down on the street floor, "Uhh, I know you're goth, and don't express emotions or feelings at all, but, do you want to talk about it?" Kenny questioned sitting down on the floor next to me, at first I went to say 'no', but I changed my mind, 'This could help fix all these confusing thoughts I'm having. Even though it's not very goth, I don't really have any other options if I want to stop feeling like this.' I thought as I replied with, "Fine, you f*cking conformist.", "Ok! First off how do you feel when you're around him?" He asked confidently, "Uhh, I guess, I- umm." I tried to respond but I couldn't find the words, "Ugh, this feels wrong." I said instead throwing my hand onto my face, "Well that's ok, take your time, this isn't something you're used to." He responded patiently, after some time, I replied "I guess, uhh, warm?" "Warm." Kenny hummed, "Like in your stomach or your face?" He asked casually as if this is something he did on the daily, "I guess, well, sometimes it's my face, other times it's my torso and then others I'm warm all over." I said panicking and covering my face with my hand slightly, "Ok that's called 'butterflies'." He said, "What?" I asked, "It's a saying for what you feel when you love someone." He answered "LOVE?!" I screamed in response, 'OH SH*T WHY DIDN'T I THINK OF THAT?!' I thought to myself panicking feeling my face turn a slight red, "See, you're feeling it now. Though this could be a gay panic, or gay awakening-" I cut him off, "Why do you know so much about this." I asked, "Oh, because I've been through it too! And certain two friends of mine have also been needing my help recently." He said smiling and straining his voice slightly out of annoyance, "Oh, ok. Well how do I know if it's a gay, ugh, gay panic? Or awakening?" I asked hesitantly, "Uhh, well I guess a gay panic is more where you already know that you're gay, but you're just experiencing intense gay feelings for someone, and a gay awakening is close to the same thing just a lot more intense as you're figuring out that you're gay, at the same time as experiencing gay feelings for someone." Kenny responded, "Uhh, I didn't know I was a f*g until now.." I muttered, Kenny looked slightly bothered but tried not to let it show, "Well, we don't say 'f*g' or any other variation of the slur as it can be offensive to some people, and I know that's probably your intention, but it can also be offensive to the people you care about, including your crush, Mike, he might think you're homophobic and try to suppress his feelings for you, if he has any that is." He said.

~KennyPOV~

Looking over at Pete after saying that, I saw he looked quiet confused, and also red in the face. "He could like me back?" He said confused, "Yea? Had you not thought about that?" I laughed while asking, "Well no, obviously not, conformist." He answered kind of aggressively, "Well I know this is sort of new to you, so, why don't you take a few days, maybe just to yourself, just to accept yourself enough, before you do anything." I suggested, "Wait. Enough? What does that mean?" He questioned "Ah. Right, well what I mean is that for someone like you, and your situation, I think it might take a while before you can fully accept yourself, hell you might never accept yourself, but as long as you're surrounded by people who truly love and support you.-" I paused, "Then, I think that's all anyone could ever ask for." I said gripping my leg slightly as I looked down at my feet, thinking about all the people I care about in my life, before snapping out of it and focusing on the conversation at hand, "So, you're saying that, if I have people in my life that care for me, and that I care for. Then it doesn't matter as much if I fully accept myself, as long as I'm happy?" He repeated, "Yea. Pretty much." I said proud of myself as I had managed to reason with a goth kid, of all people. I watched as he quickly checked the time, "Oh f*ck, lame. Confor- uhh, Kenny, uhh, thank you?" He said hesitantly as he stood up to walk away, "No problem, I'll see you at Clyde's party in two weeks?" I asked, "Uhh, perhaps, maybe if Mike wants to- ugh f*ck." He cursed himself out, "No that's normal, and it's completely a good thing, you have a soft spot for him~" I smirked, "No. F*ck you, bye." He said defensively before storming away, I laughed, 'Damn, I've been helping a lot of people recently, I just wish someone would help me with my problems.' I sighed, "But, that's fine. As long as my friends are happy, I'm happy!" I said a loud before getting up to go to my quiet space.