Philasande & Mabalwa {UNEDITED}

Our Love:Philasande & Mabalwa 10

Chapter 10

I hope this finds you well and i hope that by the end of this letter you'd have the courage to raise my little Rumi to be the great man I envision him to be.
Philasande, Rumi Gumede is what I named him,I don't know why 'Rumi' maybe because I just liked it.
I tried being a mother  to him but I just can't anymore, I'm tired of trying to be something I know I was not meant to be and that is being a good mother.

Your son, he's the kindest sweetheart I know, weird that I happened to be his mother.
He is so kind, patient, courageous, sensitive more than anything outspoken but I can see that I'm holding him back alot, I've made it so hated for him to interact with his age mates all in the name of protection and fear... fear that he might end up like me.
Just take care of him,love him.

P.S he's asthmatic.
Love Yourz.

I'm so out of words , I'd rather not express how i feel about this shit letter... man,man, man, man! I feel like horrible,how am I even going to start?
I'm watching Rumani from the balcony, reading a book sitting on the swing couch, he's reading a book...i think this would be the perfect time to speak to him, first step,right?kancane kancane.(little by little)

ME: Sawubona mfan'wami
I say with a shaky smile on my face.
He looks up, pushes his big framed glasses up with his pinky finger, smiles a very heart warming.
RUMI: Hello there
ME: what are you reading over there
I say point to the book while taking my seat right next to him.
RUMI:Diary Of A Wimpy Kid, it's quite interesting , though I would like something more brain stimulating.

Definitely got the brains from me,we continue conversations and I'm actually liking how this is.

Mabalwa

How could he not tell me? I thought we've built an unbreakable trust.
'ZzZzZzZz'
that's my phone buzzing,I look at the caller ID "Mnguni".
For Fucks sake!
"Hello."
HIM:Hey, unjani?
ME:Well thanks,how are you?
HIM: I'm good,I just wanted to ask you to come over to the palace today?
ME: that's a three hours drive to Ballito,ang'nayo ipatrol yok'dlala , please.
shit,i sound so dismissive
HIM:Weh Mabalwa,awusho la ngik'kwenzeni sisi,you so damn rude!
Uyeza noma...
ME: Fine.
HIM:ok.
He hung up.
wtf was that?