Philasande & Mabalwa {UNEDITED}

Our Love:Philasande & Mabalwa 3

Chapter 4

Philasande

In the driveway there stands the king and his queen they seem to be very excited to see me yet I'm feeling very tense because this is the first time In six years that I'm seeing my home,the kingdom that I grew up in and my parents.
The kingdom that I grew up in? feels weird because as much as I grew up in this kingdom,I just never knew what it feels to be loved by this kingdom and it's people nevermind it's people but my parents either,it was always "Zenzele This","Phiwa That","Zakhele who" ,"Nomandia whatever" and never about Phila because I apparently was independent,lies.
I needed the attention just as much with Zenzele & Phiwayinosi ,more especially Zenzele because we all knew the throne was his to take over after dad, with them two the care was always from Dad but Zakhele and Nomandia were cared for by mom...always,weird you'd think that because I'm the last boy? myself and Noma would always be the favorites or however you could put it but it was always less.
Between you and I ? that made me feel worthless hence my need to be ruthless,later I turned to drug's few months after I had my brother's son kidnapped. Cruel,I know.

When I finally went home I made sure to leave the mafia and sort out my affairs but I was too late.
I'm not dismissing the fact that my gods above have given me a second chance to this life thing,no but I'm just saying I'm was too late because I had already committed my sins.

I finally decide to come out of the car after I've calmed myself.

Me:"Sanibonani".I say walking right to the boot ,I know affection wouldn't hurt but I don't think I deserve it.
Ma quickens her pace to me and she force's a hug onto me and whispers in my ear.
"Usase yi'ndodana yami Zacharia,I missed you the least you could do is hug me.i know you feel bad but it's okay we ready to fix where we went wrong.".I feel wet on my shoulder, she's crying.
I feel my own ,I gently close my eyes and let the tears fall ,I wish it was that easy for me to accept this love but I don't deserve it so I can't.
I let go of her and my father is next to me he also pulls me in a manly but caring fatherly hug.

It feels like love but I don't deserve this.