~ A Monsters Love ~ TERANO x OC (Tokyo Reverngers)

am i too fat for you?

"No matter how hard i tried... i wasn't skinny!"

"Do you think i'm too fat?"

right after i asked him that, i covered my face in my hands. So he can't see how badly i cried. It was so bad, my nose closed! My breath got heavier. All the insults i faced my entire life came back in my mind. All the laughing, the punches... everything my classmates did to me! Everything came back. I knew someone like him can't understand that. He was probably popular and feared at the same time. 

Why won't he answer?
Does he thinks that?! 
Is he just nice by not saying a word?

"Don't tell me... that's the reason you ran like a dumb kid?"

His voice sounded pissed.. really pissed. I slightly looked up through my hands. He rubbed his tembles. A deep grunt escaped him. I began to tremble in fear that Reiko was right. To be honest i don't want to see his eyes in rage or pissed. So i lowered my head again. Thank god he didn't noticed me looking at him. "Please... just tell me." i asked him. Another grunt appeared. "Answer me first. Did you ran because of that?!" he asks me again. This was the first time he actually repeated himself. "Yes." i told him while still hiding my face in my hands. Unfortunally he didn't answer my question. Without thinking properly, i almost screamed at him: 

"Do you know how it feels?! Being told 'you're fat' the whole day? Most of my life?! I can't even go shopping! All i got are presents from the girls back in my so called home. Not to mention the way i got treated! Everyone made fun of me... or hit me without a reason."

Well, i knew that someone like him can't imagine how it felt or how it was. Especially the beating i got... he beats the shit outta people without a reason. So why did i tell him that? Now he'll thinks the same and leaves me. So i'm without a home and a friend. Maybe i should try to find a bridge where i can live now. My tears slowly dried but in case some more come, i'm going to  continue hiding my face. Minami still didn't answer. Was he gone? No, i would've heard him walking. I flinched as i felt a hand on my head. He is slowly stroking my hair while hugging me. 

"You gained a few, that's true."

My heart stopped beating. Tears formed themself again - so it was indeed a good idea to still hiding my face. "So it's true wha-" i was cut off by him tighend his hug. "Why don't you tell me what they really said to you? Than i will answer it like you want it to." he said. 

Why the fuck can't he just say it?!
Is he fucking around?! 
Or is he thinking a way to tell me that it's over?

I asked myself. Maybe he wants to know what exactly is bothering me. Isn't he clever enough to get it from my small backstory? I will never understand men. So i took a deep breath and told him what Reiko said... that's the most bothering. Minami carefully listened and stroked my hair. I felt his chest raising up and down. It calmed me down... a bit. "Maybe we should show her how we do it. If she isn't too dumb for imagining it~" he whispered lustful. My jaw dopped. How can he say that?! "M-Minami! I'm literaly crying because of that and that's all you can think of?" i asked him. He left out a small raspy laugh. 

"Nah, just wanted to see your reaction. That's the Kazuha i know. Now... to answer you dumb question. No. I don't think that. If it would be so disturbing, i would've left you immediately. Stop thinking that way. Just stop stealing my food." 

He finally answered....

Wait a minute... 
I DON'T STEAL HIS FOOD!

"Pff... i never stole your food!" i insist on correcting him. He laughs. "Of course you do! I know that you steal small things like fries. Or the last time we got italian food... a whole slice of my pizza was gone! That's what you get if you only order a salad." he said. "I don't steal! I asked you... that's a diffrence!" i said with pouted cheeks. 

Yeah it's true...
I'll ask if i can get a few fries...
But... thats not fair.

I sighed and looked up to him. "You can eat whatever you want without gaining anything. That's not fair!" i said. "It's not my fault. It's good genetic. Sorry that you aint got that." he said with a crooked smile. My jaw dropped. What a mean person he is! I turned my head away. "Don't be like that. Even though i love you silly behavior." he laughed. Now i turned my whole body away. I felt his presence soften itself. He finally calmed down. 

"I'll never be skinny, Minami..."

I told him. It was true. I can't remember a time i wasn't a chubby. Maybe he isn't leaving me for the gaining... but bad genetics can be gifet to future generations. Wait a minute... why am i thinking that? I'm 20!! I don't need to think that way! Minami's laughing stopped. 

"So what? I killed the first time i was 5 years old. Do you leave me for being a killer?" 

he asked me. Well, he got a point. Who would date a murderer? Me. So why did i forget that?! He is basically a monster. There is no point in thinking that way i did. I turned around to him. "So you won't leave me?" i asked him. Minami shook his head. "I'd be dumb if i do that. You're the only one where i can calm down." he said. I gave him a soft smile. 

Is he saying that he loves me?
Or would he tell another girl that too?
Nah... i think he loves me.
Just tell me that Minami! 

My monologue came to an end as he kissed me. I broke our kiss and shook my head. "No, i know what your intentions are. But not here! What if someone walks in?!" i told him. "Kazuha, no one dares to come in." he whispered and pushed my back on his table. 

You know what happens now...