Unexpected love | Lewis Hamilton

T W E N T Y

Lewis pov:

' am I really that unlovable ' those words from her broke me, they just echoed in my head.

I didn't know what to answer, I couldn't tell her that she was the only woman I'd ever loved that much that I did, that I would drop my whole career for her if she just asked me to, that she was the one person I looked for every time I entered a room, that she was probably one of the most lovable people I'd ever met, that I would sacrifice everything for her, that I loved her so much that seeing her with Kenji just broke my heart in a million different pieces and that I would do anything to just feel her touch one more time. But it was probably too late now, I'd messed things up because I had tried to protect her and I thought that was best for her but I didn't think of how much it would hurt to let her go and i had talked with my sister who thought I was stupid for doing what I did but I couldn't drop Nora now either. Nora really liked me and I was gonna try to just be happy with Nora and after this weekend I had to stay away from Anastasia. However much I didn't want to I had to, I couldn't hurt Nora plus Anastasia would forget about how I hurt her and move on eventually so I had to move on now as well so I wouldn't hurt Nora.

Plus she was the daughter of Christian Horner my biggest rival teams team principal, that alone made it impossible for us to end up together in the end.

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I stood there in the doorway of my room looking at her laying in my bed peacefully sleeping, I couldn't help but stare at her because she looked so peaceful and gorgeous just laying there like she used to before I fucked everything up.

' lewis, lewis, lewisssssss ' I heard Anastasia say as I ran to her bedside and sat besides her holding her hand just looking down on her.

' what is it?? '

' please stay with me, don't go please ' she begged me still having her eyes closed being drunk as fuck.

' I will just go to the guest room besides this one, I promise u won't be far away ' I said as I still held her hand.

' No I don't want to be alone '

I eventually agreed and laid besides her as she had begged me for over 10 minutes and when I laid down she instantly fell asleep, I just laid there first watching my phone then I watched some tv before I eventually also fell asleep.

The next morning I woke up and I immediately wrote a note to Anastasia telling her I would be leaving for a run with Angela and I would be back later on, although when I got back from my run she was still sleeping and so was willow and Kaiden so I just wrote a new note and told her I would go and do some work with Angela and I would be back later on. I didn't wanna wake her because she was probably very hungover so it was better if she just slept as long as she could today, then I took a shower and went out to meet Angela.

However later as I got back at around 12 I saw that she wasn't in the room and I figured she was doing something else so I just sat down and watched my phone until I heard the door to the hotel room open.

' hey, where were you? '

' dropping off willow and Kaiden to their mom, she messaged me and told me she was here to pick them up so I got them ready and went down to the lobby to drop them off ' she said as she put a card to the room on the table there.

' that's great, could we talk? ' I asked her.

' yeah, it's probably for the best that we talk.. '

Before I could speak her phone started to go off and she looked at it then looked back at me.

' sorry it's kenji, I have to meet him, max, my father and Daniel for breakfast but maybe we can talk later? ' she said.

' yeah sure, go to a guy you haven't known since yesterday ' I answered.

' I actually knew him before that, I actually made an effort to get to know the people on your side of the garage so just shut up Lewis, you were the one who ended the agreement and I have no problem if you do it's your decision but don't come and act like you care now ' she said as she rolled her eyes and went out.

God how I hated kenji right now, he was a great engineer don't get me wrong but I hated how they were so close yesterday. I hated how he looked at her and how her face lit up when she just read his message, that's how she used to smile at my texts and it had been like a day or two since we broke up and she was already smiling at kenji's texts a guy who she didn't know existed since yesterday.

Why did I mess up so bad, I had never met a girl so loving and caring like Anastasia was.

Although the family she grew up with she still became loving and caring which I adored in her, she could always make the whole world light up with her smile and her laugh. Oh my gosh don't get me started on her laugh, it was the best sound I'd ever heard except from her voice.

' get yourself together Lewis! '

I wasn't in love with her and I knew this would be the best way, yes I was not in love with her. Not in love at all, I couldn't be anyway.

Maybe I was just telling myself that because I wanted to save her pain from being with me but perhaps it was a mixture of me being scared and delusion. Maybe I was scared to try, maybe I was scared to hurt her or maybe I just overthink it all and made a bad decision.

If I hadn't end it before I would still have her in my arms at night..