Unexpected love | Lewis Hamilton

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Lewis pov:

After the race I, Lando and Max were in the cooldown room, I'd gotten p1, max p2 and Lando p3 after the camera had left Lando spoke.

' is it just me or have Anastasia been scary different since yesterday ' Lando said and max nodded.

' yeah, I agree '

I looked at them both and I couldn't help but worry about her when I heard it.

' what do you mean ' I asked.

' she's like so numb and lifeless in her act and her eyes, like I couldn't get contact with her ' Lando added.

I was about to ask more but then we had to get to the podium to start the celebrations but the thing Lando and Max had said about Anastasia didn't leave my mind. What if she needed me right now and I wasn't there? I would never forgive myself for that. Never would I ever do that, she was the mother of my child, she was also the woman I'd loved for years.

As I lift the trophy I saw her down with my team, Daniel and the Red Bull team.

She didn't look rather happy, she looked very lifeless in fact. She just stood there while Daniel and the others were so happy and cheering, she just stood there besides Daniel and her father and just looked straight forward like looking just somewhere but zoned out. I wanted to go down to her but I had to do that after the celebrations and the interviews etc because I would never get to talk to her in peace now, it was better to wait plus she wouldn't go anywhere. Would she??

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Anastasia's pov

I was sitting on the plane a few hours later after the podium celebrations, Daniel had given me a ride to the airport and my dad had fixed his private jet to take me to Portugal to my mothers house. I needed to get away for a while, I'd taken Ari & Daniel with me because I couldn't go by myself right now. Daniel would only be following me there and leave me to my mother, then go back to the paddock and fix some stuff there and then go with my father back to England to do some media stuff for Red Bull. He and my father didn't want me flying alone in this state, especially not with Ari by myself. My mother would help me take care of Ari while I was there so I wouldn't have to do it by myself but Daniel was taking care of her on our way to Portugal because I was a mentally and physically exhausted mess.

I was on the verge of breaking down, not just mentally but also physically.

I just needed a little escape for a little while, just a few months until I could get some kind of peace within myself. I'd already spoken to Mick about going away and he thought nothing special about it because I mean he didn't know what had happened yesterday but he supported my decision and we decided we'd see each other in a few months and until then we'd talk on the phone and message each other.

I had just a few minutes ago sent away a quick text to tell Lewis that I had left with Ari and that my dad or Daniel would pick up Ari sometime when he wanted to see her.

More than that I didn't say, he didn't need to know. No one did. My mother, brother, father and Daniel knew wasn't that enough? Plus I couldn't speak about that night, not now and I didn't know when I would ever be able to speak about all of the trauma that happened yesterday it had all changed me in a blur.

I didn't know if I could go back to being the same girl I was before all of that happened. Maybe I wouldn't ever be that girl again, maybe I would never be able to heal again. In any way a little few months away in Portugal was gonna be good for me I think.

Just some time with my mother, Ari all alone would be good for me. I needed to just get away for a while and just disappear, I needed to disappear to escape my feelings and that might because it was gonna haunt me. Maybe it wasn't fair to Lewis that I just left and he didn't get to say goodbye to his daughter but he would get to see her soon enough, when he had time and wanted to Daniel and my father could come and pick her up and drop her off with him for a week or something.

As we landed I saw my mother with my step father standing there waiting, their car parked there.

As I got out of the plane I fell into my mothers arms as Daniel came out with my bags, Ariana and her stuff together with her stroller. My step father took my bags, Ari's bags and her stroller and put it in the trunk as I then pulled away from my mother as she took Ari from Daniel and I gave Daniel the biggest hug ever.

' I'll see you soon okay? ' Daniel said with tears in his eyes.

' very soon ' I said also with tears in my eyes as we hugged each other and he got in the plane again as he looked back at us and the doors to the plane closed again.

I turned to my mother and step father with tears still filling my eyes, my mother hugged me again as my step father put Ari in the car and then we all got in the car. I put my phone on do not disturb and just like that the start of something that would make me be someone who I wouldn't recognize started.

When we drove by some mountains to get up to my mother & step fathers house I saw the sea and it seemed so addicting to be there. By the sea with nothing but the water, you and the wind there.

This would be okay in the end.

Now I would just have to figure my own shit out for a while, away from everything and everyone. I could just relax and try to find my new self, I needed to just try and stay alive for the time being. Just try to not give up on life and on my daughter. Cause at this point she was the only thing keeping me alive right now, the only thing.