BADDIE \ Z.M

31.

A/n. Hey guys so much has happened this summer and I haven't had any time to write on the story but yeah I'll start update again. This chapter will involve self harm just warning yaa okey  enjoy the chapter!
Aicha's POV
It's late November and everything has been pretty cool and calm I haven't heard much from Taleah since that time at the hospital...I miss her so much. Well I'm currently sitting in class with my group of friends. I'm so bored I wanna do something fun!
"Psssst Chris psst" I whispered to Chris yes the one I fake dated for a day.
"Yea?" He whispered back
"I'm bored can we skip and do something fun?" I asked
"Well go to the toilet  and I'll be there in a sec" I asked the teacher if u could go to the toilet  she said yes then I left I stood outside the toilets when Chris came out from the classroom
"So what should we do?" He asked
"Hmmm I KNOW a shopping cart race or like we can race around in  them?"
"That sounds fun let's do it" we went to a grocery store about 10 minutes from school and got one shopping cart when we took one and went away with it one of the people that works there ran out and shouted at us but we just ran all the way to school. I looked at the time and saw that everyone should be at lunch or be in class perfect.
"Chris?"  I said looking up at him from sitting in the cart
"Yeah"
"Do you have your mini speakers with you?"
"Of course I always have them well you locker is right over three go and get them" he went to his locker got them and I connected my phone to it I started to play power by Young thug and he started to push the cart really fast and the music started to play really loud and we both turned up to the music and before I know it he push me really hard into the cafeteria and I roll in with full speed and everyone is looking at me rolling by and screaming with music playing loud I crash I to a table and Chris came running after and he couldn't stop laughing at me I laugh and cry at the same time while he help me get up and I look up to se I crashed into Zayn's table. They all look at us and starts to laugh all of them but Zayn? He looked at Chris and I really mad and before any of us can say anything the principal comes in with to policemen and I know that I'm fucked Chris took my hand and we ran out of the emergency door with the police hot on our heels. We run to some kind of apartments and Chris takes me in and we se the police car that they got I guess drive past. Me and Chris looked at each other in shock before bursting out in laughter. We decided to hang out until school ends and maybe little longer?

I say bye to Chris before walking out to the cold November evening I hurry up home and when I get there the door is surprisingly unlocked. Strange Zayn never leave the door unlocked I walk in and I smile at the warmth of the apartment. I take of my jacket and walk into the Living Room where Zayn is watching some Tv show he doesn't even react when I sit down he just continue to watch the show on the tv.
"Hi" i say kissing his cheek but get surprised when he push me away not hard but just to make him self get up and walk into the kitchen. I sit there and think of things I've could of done to make him ignore me?  All I did was hanging out with a friend so I don't get what maybe I should talk to him and ask. I walk into the kitchen to se Zayn standing buy the sink drinking some water with his back faced to me. I walk up and put my hand on his shoulder he shakes his shoulder and turn around looking at me in disgust.
"wtf is your problem is it the time if the month or what" I said starting to get mad
"Whats my problem? YOU!! you are my problem"
"What have I done to be your problem"
"Well I don't know why don't you ask Chris" he say his eyes darkening
"Wtf all of this cause your jealous?! Huh"
"NO ITS CAUSE YOUR BEING A STUPID SLUT THAT CANT HOLD TO ONE GUY"  he screamed and my eyes started to water and I was just going to say something
"Aww your gonna cry? Crying isn't gonna help you why you acting so immature all the time man up stop crying every time something is bad and you fuck things up"
"YOU KNOW WHAT ZAYN?! I CRY THIS TIME CAUSE IF YOU CAUSE THE PERSON I LOVE MORE THEN EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD IS INSULTING ME AND BEING RUDE FOR NO DAMN REASON..I fkn love you more than you  can imagine sometimes i think I love you more then I ever loved my mom you don't know about everything I've been trough and I have every damn right to cry and now that you call me a slut for hanging out with a friend I actually doubt my love to you.
"Aich-"
"No I don't wanna hear it" I walked away wiping away the tears that would fall any minute. I walked into the bathroom and I sat there trying to keep the tears in a few slipped but I didn't dare to make any sound I wanna show Zayn that I'm not weak. I saw the sharp object laying on the sink and I didn't think twice about picking it up. I slowly rises up my sleeve and then pressed the razor against the smooth skin the. Dragging it making a cut I stinger and felt just the way I like it. I did it agin and again and again. I started to feel dizzy when I stopped I threw away the razor and I opened the door to se Zayn outside with puffy eyes. He could se the blood soaking my white longs leave shirt left arm. He looked at the shirt and shakes his head fresh tears running down his cheeks. He took my arm I didn't have energy to refuse so I let him slide up my shirt and he cringed at what he saw but just cried harder then pulling me to his chest. Holding me close that's when I let my self go I cried more then ever before. Zayn picked me up laying my down on the bed getting in both of us crying ourself to sleep holding each other close.