𝐅𝐮𝐜𝐤 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞

73 - Forever Mine / Never Mind (10 minute version)

[intro]
You don't understand
I didn't want no other man
I roll all my dopamine on you
I did everything I can
and I fucked it up again
I spend all my dopamine on you
So sit down, and read
one last time.

—

Our secret moments in a crowded school
these students got no idea about me and you.
There is an indentation in the shape of you
so I write on you, a marker tattoo.
You want to wear my initial (MF)
on this mark 'round your arm
not because you owns me
but 'cause you really know me...
and I screamed for whatever it's worth
"I love you" ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?
You look up grinning like a devil,
so take it to another level.

1 year of hesitation
all of this silence and patience, pining in anticipation
my hands are shaking for all these texts from you. (you too)
All of this silence and patience, pining and desperately waiting
my hands are shaking from all this. (you know it)
Baby
Say my name and everything just...
Stop, I don't want you like a best friend
only bought this dress so you could take it off
"Take it off" I say.
Stop, carve your name into my bedpost.
'Cause I don't want you like a best friend
Only bought this dress so you could...
Stop, do me what you want

Even from afar,
even when we break up, (twice)
we still cross the line,
'cause you wanna be my "Forever mine".
Inescapable, I'm not even gonna try
and if I get burned, at least we were electrified.
I'm spilling Gin in the bathtub
you kiss my face and we're both drunk.
Everyone thinks that they know us
but they know nothing about.
Fever dream high in the quiet of the night
devil looks really nice, angel roll red eyes.
What doesn't kill me makes me want you more.
Let's do it on the floor.

5 year of hesitation
all of this silence and patience, pining in anticipation
my hands are shaking from holding back you. (you more)
All of this silence and patience, pining and desperately waiting
your hands are taking it away from me. (it's not a dream)
Baby
Say my name and everything just...
Stop, I don't want you like a best friend
only bought this dress so you could take it off
"Take it off" I say
Stop, carve your name into my bedpost.
'Cause I don't want you like a best friend
Only bought this dress so you could...
Stop, do me what you want
Stop.
Call it what you want. (Love?)

[bridge]
Flashback when you met me
in our first class, next to my seat
your gold tastes and my Ariana's cds,
even in my worst times
you could see the best of me.
Flashback to your mistakes
and my rebounds, my earthquakes,
even in your worst lies
I saw the truth in you.
And we make up just in time
now I wake up by your side.
My one and only, my lifeline,
I return just in time
in my west side
my hands shake, the beat is high
you're my lover and benefit
I can't explain this...

My baby
Say my name and everything just...
Stop, I don't want you like a best friend
only bought this dress so you could take it off
"Take it off" I say
carve your name into my bedpost.
'Cause I don't want you like a best friend
Only bought this dress so you could...
Stop, do me what you want
Stop, call it what you want (Love?)
Stop, do me what you want
Stop, I don't want you like a best friend (no more)
So stop.

—

Stop.

—

Stop.
You're losing me.
I'd never walk your Love Avenue again
Stop.
Call this a big loss.
Stop, I don't want you like a dummy.
Stop.
You're losing me.

You said you needed space
What?
You said you didn't want a fiancé
Sure?
Then you come around again and say
"Baby, I miss you and I need you"
What a shame!
Finally I saw you with another.
Are you together?
You say "I wanna see her" and I say "Of course, you can".
You say, "I don't understand you"
and I say "I know you can't"
we thought a cure would come through in time, now, I fear it won't.
So "Go, baby, let's be honest, you don't love me for a long time". (I'll let you go)
But remember lookin' at my room, we loved it 'cause of the red light
making love in many ways, scratching skins, leaving fears.
Now, I just sit in the dark, crying and wonder if it's time to disappear.

I'd like to write u "I miss our little things",
but then I remember that if we miss each other,
there should be two of us, no others.
Do I throw out everything we built or keep it?
I'm getting tired, listening to "Phoenix"
our friendship has so many ashes
our love has left only gashes.
You finally have dealt that mind blow, the final blow.
Stop, you're losin' me
Stop, you're losin' me
Stop, you're losin' me
I can't find a pulse
my heart won't start anymore
for you
'cause you're losin' me.

"Shake if off" you say
want to leave the weapon in your loft
"but I care about you" I say
"I can't see you tonight"
Go, you can hide away and can find your peace of mind
"For us, this is the very last time"
then you play some indie record that's much cooler than mine. (just kidding)
You know very well that...
there's different ways to kill the one you love
the slowest way is not loving them enough.
How can you say that you love someone you can't tell is dyin'?
The smell of smoke hang around like your last "never mind"
bitting your nails down to the quick
my face was gray, but you wouldn't admit that we were toxic and sick.
And I still love it,
but you're just getting the beat.
Sometimes I wanna wake up in 2017
and wish it was all a dream
I'd never answered that "hello",
'cause I suffer so damn much when I see a my baby go
and you go.

And our sex is thick with loss and indecision
I know our invisible string for you is such an imposition.
From my home, you're runnin' down the hallway,
in you mind you know what they all say
"you don't know what you got until it's gone",
but you don't care
'cause now you're gonna meet her...
Stop, you're losin' me
Stop, you're losin' me
Stop, you're losin' me
I can't find a motive
I don't wanna see you anymore
Forever.
'Cause you're losin' me.

Baby,
Stop, you're losing me.
Stop, you're losing me.
Just stop.

[bridge]
How long could we be only sad songs?
'Til we were too far gone to bring back to life?
These years I gave you all my best me's, my sparkling love, my endless empathy
and all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier.
Writing this book 'til the sun shining.
Fighting in only your army.
Frontlines, so don't you ignore me.
I was always the best pussy at parties
(were you using me?)
but I wouldn't marry me either
a pathological people pleaser,
who's too exuberant and meaner,
who's too intense that's why she's weaker
and who only wanted you to see her...

[outro]
And I'm fallin', fadin',
and thinkin':
"Do something, baby, say something"
(tell me the truth)
"Lose something, baby, risk something"
(you're still using me)
"Fight for something, baby, scream for something"
(you don't want me)
"Choose something, baby, I got nothing...
(you don't feel nothing)
...to believe
unless you're choosin' me".
But you, never chose me, it's fine,
it never mind.
I was always the best pussy spare wheel
and you're losing me.

Stop.
You're losin' me.
Stop.
Now you're losing me.
I can't find a pulse
my heart won't start anymore for you.
You lost me.

Stop.