My old chapters beam me up
in a cloud of sparkling dust
mold in these ancient experiments
where I wrote to be "The One"
they proved that my heart was bigger than others,
oh God, leave me in my present form,
nostalgia is a whore without wings.
I think I'll save this bullshit to me...
In those moments I knew cosmic love
now I'm down bad crying at my notebook
everything comes out teenage petulance
"What if I can't have him"
"I might just die, it would make no difference."
Down bad
I remember waking up in blood
staring at the door, come back and pick me up,
I wrote "What if I can't have us? I might just not get up
I might stay down bad"
"What if I can't have him?"
Down bad
"What if I can't have him"
Did my mum take all my old letters?
Wanna read one more time, before leaving naked and alone
in a field in my same old town
that somehow seems so hollow now
they'll say I'm nuts if I talk about the existence of you,
of my ex lovers and ex friends.
So if I thought of them one more time does it make me obsessed?
Or maybe anciently I loved them too much instead.
In those moments I was heaven struck
now I'm down bad crying at my letters
everything comes out teenage petulance
"What if I can't have him"
"I might just die, it would make no difference."
Down bad,
I remember texting him at 4 a.m.
staring at the chat, text me back and pick me up
"What if I can't have us?? I might just not get up
I might stay down bad"
Like I lost my twin
"What if I can't have him???"
Down bad
Down bad
Waving at the ship
"What if I can't have him????"
[bridge]
I loved your hostile takeovers
encounters closer and closer
all your indecent exposures.
How dare you said that it was sexy(?)
I built you a fort on Saturn
where they could all understand it
how dare you though it was romantic(?)
leaving me safe and stranded
cause what if I was really in love?
What if I was The One?
What if there wasn't an us??????
'Cause fuck I was in love.
In those moments I was fucked in the head
now I'm down bad laughing at the screen
everything comes out teenage petulance
"What if I can't have him?"
"I might just die, it would make no difference."
Down bad,
I remember killing me with my own hands
staring at the knife, come back and pick me up
"What if I can't have us?????? I might just not get up. I might stay down bad"
Like I lost my twin
"What if I can't have him?"
Down bad
"Does he really want me?"
Down bad
Reading this dumb question
"What if I can't have him?"
Like I lost my twin
"What if I can't have us?"
Like I lost my twin
I was really down bad.
oh God, sent me back in my present form,
nostalgia is a whore without wings.
I think I'll save this bullshit to me...
I was really down bad.
STAI LEGGENDO
𝐅𝐮𝐜𝐤 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞
ChickLitQuesta è una breve storia inverosimile da cui potrete trarre molti insegnamenti. Le canzoni inserite nei capitoli finali sono di natura autobiografica, ma non in ordine cronologico; frasi, luoghi, persone citate sono sia reali che inverosimili, alcu...
