twisted

chapter 10-I'm back

Jessica pov-

well it's been four days.

that's something I guess .

I haven't left my room I've been so scared of what might happen, what is he going to put him through ,I remember as soon as I read the note I couldn't stop crying for 12 hours I was wounded, ny dad knows I love Jordan ,so why would he hurt me like this it's not fair.

I haven't gone to school and I certainly am not going any time soon not unless I see him again.

Will I see him again. . .

"honey are you alright" my mother yells through the music playing in my ears "no" I told her everything last night I just couldn't handle crying alone she was shocked when I told her dad was alive but she didn't care she was mad at him but she knew what he was doing "honey trust me he will come back maybe not tomorrow but he will come back" I never cried so hard in my life she left me be since then understanding the pain I think or at least I hope.

I miss him. . .

and that hurts

I feel sick and sick.

everything I even think about something other than him my gut just churns.

it hurts everything hurts especially my heart because there is nothing I can do.

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"honey come have some breakfast"
my mother calls I drag my body out of bed actually wanting to do something other than mope around in my bed.

I walk down the stairs and smell pancakes and fruit.

I drool at the smell.

and dramatically run down the stairs and pull up a seat and start munching down quickly it feels like forever since I actually ate "hey baby girl" She says "yes" I reply stuffing another piece of food in my mouth. "are you feeling better" I sigh "yes. but I'm not okay does that make sence" She smiles "yes" .

we sit there for over an hour talking laughing and I finally start to feel better even there is this hole in my heart forever burning a place there.

it's almost like as if he is HAUNTING me. . .

each time I lay asleep I swear I hear him "for her I will do this for her" he whispers to me at night "I have to see hee again" was the one thing I heard the most.

it hurts me every time I hear him.

it's cuts me deep.

it burns.

how much longer can I last.

in a fit of craziness sitting at the table eating pancakes decide to get my head out of the world.

"mum can I go to the shops today, to you know get out for a bit" I say.

she smiles and laughs "of course baby as long as you come home" I say thanks to her then go up stairs and have a shower.

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10 minutes later...

I walk out of the shower and pull out my shopping out fit of a light blue wooly sweater and green tights Matched th my red handbag and my signature black gym shoes.

I walk out of the house proud of my messy bun and light make up I jump into my old jeep and pull out heading towards my local mall.

it's a 6 minute drive through, I'm blasting my radio playing my favorite station 106.5 nxfm .

dancing in my seat to the latest beats I pull up to the mall given even dieng to see .

the first placed I go to is big w I go straight to then took section.

I have about $100 to spend today, so I. grab the two new books by Julie kawaga "rogue" and "the forever song " ten dollars each putting under my arm I walk over to the clothes section I pull out a nice skirt it's a old fashioned skirt that you would see on female students at school it's a bright red standing out its $20 I take it and look around for a top to match.

soon enough I fall apon a nice leather jacket with a demin hood on it it's $10 remembering my white top at home I form a perfect out fit.

going to the counter to pay i leave ,going to my next shop "the teens barn" this has been my favorite for awhile.

running in I find a pair of skinny jeans that are a bright neon green or aqua and only $15 I grab it and see a pair of shoes with the words "hope" on them I aslo grab them too paying i leave done with shopping for the day .

I've spend $65 in total I decide to grab something to eat as well ,i go in to the food court And get a foot long sub with chicken and salad.

while eating someone I recognise from the new school I'm going to school comes up to me "hello,I'm Julie your Jessica aren't you" she reaches out and shakes my hand "yes I am,how may I help you" she laughs "I just saw you and saw you were shopping " I smile "yeah I got some new books and some clothes" I see the girl is alone "so what are you doing here then" she frowns "I had to go with my little sister to meet her friends, drop her off then pick her up" I feel sorry for her I'm a only child "oh how old is she " I ask "she is 15" I laugh "oh trying to be popular stage of school" she laughs eagerly "yep" we exchange numbers and I head out on my way.

again playing the radio all the way home dancing along to the new beats of the day.

pulling up I see a different car in my driveway, parking on the street I walk in with all my bags in my arms not bothering to tell my mum I'm home I go into my room and leave my bags there.

I then walk down the stairs seeing my mum and a young man who's backs is turned talking "mum what's going on" I ask in a worried voice.

he turns around, my eyes widen and I fall to the ground.

"jordan" I gasp the words leaving my lips in a hushed whispered.

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okay guys I hope u like this Jessica made a new friend and she has git Jordan back.

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