twisted

chapter 30- epilogue

5 years later-

Jess pov-

"Kai, be careful" I yell towards my son, even though i wanted a girl, I received a beautiful boy on 23 of January he was a week early but could never have been more happy, and now my little boy is 4 years old and next month he will be 5.

My mother and father have gotten back together after everything that happened they just couldn't not love each other, my father still hunts for the man who took my little brother we are all hopeful.

Today is Jordan's anniversary, and I'm dropping off kai at his grandfather's my dad house so I can go see the. .. it hurts to say it and today is the first time I'm going to the graveyard since the funeral, that day hurts me, to remember.

-flash back-

Me and Matthew, my father sit silently in our lounge room black now sits on a white lounge, tears are already painted on my cheeks, I just didn't think this would ever happen "Come on" he whispers to me his voicing cracking again "he promised" I whisper as I get up he holds my shoulders as I pull the lace down over my face and we head out the door.

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As everyone sits down all the people here are his friends from the company he worked for, now that I know he was an agent I've gotten to know them in the short two weeks I've know them, and it feels like I know more of him now.

I walk up from my seat and place the photo of us on top of the dark brown wood littered with flowers and paper, we wanted everyone to write what they wanted to say to him before he left, basically, the words left unsaid.
Placing the framed photo I walk up to the microphone and I breath "h-hello everyone" I say, my voice breaks "we are all g-gathered here today, to mourn and celebrate the life of J-jordan Blake" tears ripple just from saying his name "he was a great man, friend and lover, if I could just see him one more time I would say" I open up my last words to him "dear Jordan, my everything, my world I know you are watching me write this, I know you can feel the tight feeling in my chest at the emotion of writing this, I guess the one thing I wish I told you, before you left me is I love you so much and that I'm naming the baby kai Because I remember that was under the tree when you told me about your father, how his name was kai, I believe that was the day I fell in love with you, I knew how much you wanted a child, and, and n-now you aren't even here to see it come true" the tears drop on the paper under my fingers "I wanted to sing a song, if your watching me, you will know what it means" I smile at ten sky then place the paper down and smile

"I'll wear your winter coat, the one you love to wear
So I keep feeling close to what's beyond compare
The moments waking up, you catch me in your eyes
That beauty on my pillow that holds me in the night

And I would fight my strength to untape my mouth
When I used to be afraid of the words
But with you I've learnt just to let it out
Now my heart is ready to burst
Cause I, I feel like I'm ready for love
And I, wanna be your everything and more
And I know every day I say it
But I just want you to be sure
That I am yours

And if I be feeling heavy
You take me from the dark
Your arms they keep me steady
So nothing could fall apart

And I would fight my strength to untape my mouth
When I used to be afraid of the words
But with you I've learnt just to let it out
Now my heart is ready to burst
'Cause I, I feel like I'm ready for love
And I wanna be your everything and more
And I know every day I say it
But I just want you to be sure
That I am yours

That I am yours"

As I finish the song tears are falling everywhere, slowly the people get up and the casket is slowly lowered down along with the pictures everyone throws with it.
"I am yours" as the final note sounds the casket is lowered and everyone stands quiet.

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Walking away from the grave was the hardest thing I've ever done.

"I love you" I mumble as I get into the car and my father drives me back home.

-Flashback over-

Five years on and I feel like I need to see it once before he turns six, he told me he hasn't been to his dad's stone is six years and he made me promise to never do that to anyone.

While Driving I realise I'm also going pass our school.

Finally I arrive at the graveyard, parking my car I play that song over and over the one a sang on that day, walking through the other graves I see how dirty they are, how uncared for they seemed and suddenly I felt guilty for not seeing him regularly.

I continue walking then I see it the clean stone stands up bright and alive his name is craved in side it and, I drop to my knees and tears spring up from my eyes "I'm so sorry, Jordan, it just hurts to even say your name" I sob.

I then sit back on the stone and lay back "Jordan, you won't believe me, but he is just like you" I begin talking feeling as if this is the most easiest thing I've done, it feels like he is sitting next to me taking in each word.

After I rabble for over 30 minutes I get up, then I have an idea , I'm going to the tree house just one last time to see if it's still there.

I begin walking out of the gates and towards my old high school, the school I hated to even walk into, it all seems like a life time ago now, but here I am about 8 years on and everything has changed since that point in my life.

As I walk through the gates I take the short cut towards the woods, in minutes I'm standing in front of the large tree I've had the best times on life in, the plates of wood still stand there , the latter looks old and parts have broken off , other teens must have climbed it.

I slowly climb up the rotted wood myself as I come up through the top, I see the owl, it looks into my eyes and then it blinks, a rush of wind blows my face and the bird looks deeper into my eyes "Jordan" I gasp the eyes, the bird has human eyes "Jordan" the bird flys away into the trees, I look at the place which it just stood and cut into the board is "I love you too" the owl did it.

My mind goes back into the first day we started building.

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"Jess" He says, he pokes on my arm "look" He points up into the trees and there in plain sight was an owl "wow" I gasp shocked it's bright out and it just stands there watching "its beautiful, one day I'll fly like an owl" He smiles and laughs.

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I sit and lean back on the tree and stare at the message "he kept his promise" i sob .

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Okay guys that's it, it's finished I'm sorry for putting you all through this, but you love me
I'm hoping to do another book to this but I don't know, you tell me if you want more.

Okay thank you for sticking around for so long