twisted

chapter 28- not giving up/escape

Jess pov-
Tears Tears and more tears, he can't be gone, we've been through so much, zeke. Why I know he only wanted me, maybe that was his plan all along to make me suffer.

As I clutch Jordan's body, his cold body I feel strong hands go around my waist and grasp my stomach, trying to pull me away "can't we take him with us" I sob tears falling slowly down my face "he will drag us down, we can't" I snap at his words how can he say that, I love him, how can he expect me to leave him like that,like this, I stoke Jordan's face closing his eyelids down as another tear falls onto his face as have the many others.

then every single piece of emotion I have bulid up in the last five days being trapped find Jordan again,losing him.

everything just explodes outwards, in every direction "what do you mean, we can't" I wipe my tears and begin to yell my father steps back seeing the rage in my eyes in the color of fire.

I rise from my spot next to Jordan's body and I am hit with a blast of anger and rage "he's fucking dead, he is dead, we can't leave him" all my rage leaves me as I fall down on my knees and clutch my shoulders,I fall on my bottom and rock back and forth I begin wailing out in an instant "I love him so much" I begin to sob the water running from my eyes in straight lines blurring my sight ,my whole body goes numb just as it really sets in that he is truly gone, "he promised he wouldn't leave,daddy he said he would stay no matter what" my heart tears in three different ways as the pain sets in, I must be dreaming Jordan wouldn't leave me like this .

"NOOOOOOOO ,NOOOO , PLEASE ,WAKE ME UP ,WAKE ME UP" I scream I yell I wail, but it all refuses to work, my only love is gone the one person who ever truly loved me is gone forever.

My eyes glaze over as another wave of a all consuming rage eats at me "how could you let him die, dad, he did everything for me, why couldn't you be there instead, WHY"I scream at him, he steps back again "WHAT SCARED OF YOUR OWN DAUGHTER, THIS IS WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE TO HAVE YOUR HEART TORN APART" I scream at him again then the tears fall again and my heart goes back into its shell tearing it's self apart ripping to shreds and suddenly my heart breaks "he said he would never leave me" .

My mood swings consume me again, I find myself fighting a worthless battle inside my head one moment I'm screaming in pain and lost chanting about how he said he would go and the other minute I'm a raging fire, burning down the Buliding screaming at my father for not being in his place, swapping between water and fire, putting out the flames only for then to start up again and again

After ten minutes of my emotions flipping and turning into a not stop force, my arms go limb and my eyes dart open...

"Daddy, I'm hurting" I finally stop and fall to my side I drag my arm up my hip and feel a dart sticking out "I'm sorry darling it was for your own good" I begin sobbing again, the tears burning my eyes "but jordan" he sighs "Jason is getting him now, I'm sorry" he says as he picks me up and takes me over the shoulder, I'm just glad that the last thing Jordan did, was give me his shirt even though I wish he was still alive, I hope he is watching me now, I hope he knows I love him, and I hope he knows that I'm never going to forget our time together.

My eyes begin to close, as my body hits a cold wind and I realise I'm free from zeke.

At a cost..

My subconscious mocks at me ,soon my eyes close and a single get escapes me.

"I love you jordan" I whisper out loud into the star filled night hoping, praying that Jordan is one of those stars shining brightly.

I will always love you...

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Okay guys your lieing if you think you didn't almost least shead a tear cuz I cried the while why through writing that. Argh emotions suck