Darkside of the Sun

Chapter 17 - And the winner is...

Tom's POV

"I love you too."

Is what she said. I couldn't believe it, she loved me. Those were the words I have always wanted her to say, and now she did. I love her so much. It feels as if I can't function without her. I need her. She gives me light in the darkness. She shines so bright like the moonlight. That's what we are, the perfect combination. Darkness and light are so different from each other, yet so the same. She will always come back to me, my Luna. Just like the moon she'll always come back.

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We held eye contact for what felt like years. Us just us. The world going by without a single thought about those who were not us. I cupped her face with my hand and stroke her silky tanned perfect skin. My lips gently touched hers and she flinched at first, but she would give in. She did, and oh she gave in good. It felt like she was hungry. Starving for my lips, me. She was dominant, she knew what she wanted and I would do anything for her to give her the satisfaction. My Luna was waiting for this moment which felt like forever, both of us were.

She froze, she just stopped with what she was doing. Her perfect brown eyes locked with mine and they showed some sort of guilt. Guilt. Why would she be guilty? I loved her, she loved me. End of story.

She took a few steps back and looked down at the ground. What was she doing? I took a few steps towards her and grabbed her hands. I kissed both of them and stopped when words were starting to form.

"I'm sorry Luna, do you think you can ever forgive me?" I pleaded or you could say I practicillay begged.

Luna's POV

"I'm sorry Luna, do you think you can ever forgive me?" 

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Why does this hurt so much. I don't know what to do. A part of me wants to scream I DO! I Want him to give me all his love, live happily ever after. But life doesn't work like that. I feel like I would be betraying myself if I would just run back into his embrace. I would be weak, I am weak. My emotions always get the best of me. They are impulsive, my emotions don't think they just do. That has always been my problem. They don't think and in the end I always end op getting hurt. I feel too much, I care too much. But this...I have to really think about this one. I love Tom with all my heart. I want him to feel my pain for a second. But I didn't know if I could bring myself to add any more pain that he was clearly already feeling.

He looks at me like a lost puppy and tears were starting to form into his eyes. I can't stand this whole situation. I have to make up my mind, right now. Come on Luna you can do this. Just give in and it will all be okay.

Tom's POV

It felt like forever. Why the fuck won't she answer me? She can do this. All she has to say is yes and it will all be over. I will give her all the love she needs. It's like a golden ticket, who the fuck wouldn't take that? Who the fuck wouldn't take me? I'm Tom Kaulitz and I can get anyone I want. All I have to do is just snap my fingers and half of germany lays at my feet. Why am I even here? I can see she doesn't want me. If you love someone you just know it, you don't think about it you just feel it in your bones.

I felt my blood starting to boil as the minutes were flying by. Calm the fuck down Tom don't let your anger get the best of you. 

I grabbed her chin harsh making her face me. The tears were starting fall out. And here we go again.

"Listin to me Luna. You're gonna give me a straight answer right fucking now. And if you don't want to speak I will make you fucking scream." I spoke firmly.

God I hate myself.

She just looked at me in disbelief and it looked like words didn't dare to come out. She was scared of me again. Fuck Tom you fucking idiot. She let out a shaky breat and gently grabbed my hand that was still placed on her chin.