His Detka

14. Linda & Erin

The ride home was silent as we took in the sights around us. Wrapping my hands around him, my heart felt warm. For the first time since Jamie's death, I was reminded of what home felt like.

I gripped Bucky a little harder and rested the left side of my face against his back right side. Granted, I'm wearing my helmet, but it's so comforting to be here with Bucky like this. I stayed this way until we pulled back up at the compound.

As we pulled in, Nat & Papa's quinjet was landing, signifying that they were back from the mission. When Bucky killed the ignition on the bike, we sat there for a minute. Neither of us wanted to move. We were both enjoying each other's company. I didn't want the moment to end.. I ALMOST wanted him to kiss me, but as quickly as the thought came, it was gone.

Because it hit me. While being with Bucky feels right, because we mesh together so well. Like he was my missing puzzle piece. How could something so right feel so wrong at the same time? Like I'm disrespecting Jamie and his memory. Like I'm cheating on him almost.

I removed my arms from around Bucky and carefully removed my helmet. Bucky started moving as well, taking off his helmet and then swinging his right leg off, removing himself from the bike. He put his hand out for me and I just placed my borrowed helmet there instead. I braced myself on the seat of the bike and swung my right leg up and over, and then I was off the bike.

Bucky was staring at me with an emotion I wasn't quite familiar with yet. Whatever he was feeling though, made him look so sexy. Something about this man made me want to say 'fuck it all' and throw caution to the wind.

When I'm around this man, I get all warm and tingly on the inside. Here lately, when I'm around him, there's a warm scratchy, tingling feeling I'll get over the upper left-hand side of my left thigh. It was a weird sensation to say the least. Why this spot? I was quickly pulled from my thoughts when he started talking to me.

"I had a really nice time today with you, Blaire," Bucky said. There was a sparkle in his cerulean blue eyes. I swear looking into them, I felt at peace instantly. All of the troublesome thoughts that were just plaguing my mind, gone.

"I had a great time as well. The hiking spot you chose was absolutely breathtaking."

"A beautiful spot for a beautiful dame," he said. It had blush creeping its way into my cheeks, and igniting the butterflies in my stomach, as well as the itching on the upper left-hand side of my left thigh.

"Well, I guess I better go," I said shyly. I looked down at my hiking boots and was fixing to walk away when he said, "A week from today okay with you for our ride up to the border and back?"

"Absolutely!" I squeaked out faster than what was probably acceptable; and then he gave me his knee weakening smile that I have come to know and adore since I first met him three years ago.

We said our goodbyes and then I sauntered off to my suite on the 5th floor. I was going to be meeting up with Jamie's family tomorrow for our routine church and Sunday lunch.

The next morning, I walked into the church that I frequented on Sundays with the Reagans, the same one that we had Jamie's funeral in, as well as the one that should've been where I got married. My heels make a slight noise as I walk to the same pew we sat in every week.

Once I genuflected and sat down, Erin reached over to give my arm a squeeze. After I said my prayers silently, I sat back making the sign of the cross and looked over at Erin. I give a small, somber smile. Nicky, her daughter, gave me a slight wave and smile full of metal. She'll be getting her braces off soon so I'm curious to see how they'll look.

I lean over towards Erin's ear closest to me and I mention "There's something I'd like to discuss with you and Linda later on. More like advice of sorts, I guess. I'm not sure how to describe it." I admit.