What Can I Do // Dalpop

Facade

Soda's POV

I felt an invisible force push down on my chest, and I started to panic in my sleep.

I slowly opened my eyes and was blinded for a second before adjusting my eyes and seeing Dally on top of me.

His head was next to mine, and I could tell he was still sleeping fron looking at his face.

I suddenly felt warm and safe in his embrace and secretly wished it could last forever. If only my bladder felt the same way.

I tried to move his arms off of me, and that only made him grip me tighter.

"Dally, I have to pee!"

I wiggled a little bit before he released me and sleepily said, "Hurry back."

I dashed through the hall until I made it to the bathroom, and I finally relieved myself.

I washed my hands and hurried back to Dally's room, where he was in the same position he was when I left. I lifted the blanket and crawled in bed next to him.

He immediately squeezed me tightly and said, "Good morning."

"Morning, how'd you sleep?"

"Like a baby. I love having you in my bed. It'll be hard to sleep alone from now on."

I blushed at his comment and intertwined our fingers before kissing his hand and saying, "I wish we could stay like this forever. Is it stupid to wish for something I know can't happen?"

"Why can't it happen?"

I frowned and said, "You know why it can't. It could ruin everything we have."

He immediately responded dryly with, "You are everything I have. Having the guys know that won't affect me in any way."

Damn it. I wish he didn't have to make me feel so guilty about wanting our relationship to be a secret.

My eyes were watery, but I didn't want to cry, "I'm sorry, I'm just scared. You saw how Steve acted when he first found out. If they treated me differently, I don't know what I'd do, Dal."

He let go of me and sat up before facing me and saying, "You'll live. You'll realize that life goes on even if the people you love can't accept you for who you are. And then, if you have nobody else to turn to, you can tough it out with me. I'd be perfectly fine with that."

He wiped tears that I couldn't feel running down my face and pecked me on the lips before getting out of bed and going to the bathroom.

I felt a little guilty after talking to him. I decided to reconsider not telling Darry and Ponyboy. Even though they're still my family, if they couldn't accept me for who I was, I shouldn't have to hide my relationship with Dally forever.

After a minute, he came back to the room and sat next to me, and started tracing circles on my back.

"You good?"

I nodded and looked at him, "I'll tell them. I don't know how or when, but I'm gonna do it."

He furrowed his brows, "Don't just say that just because you feel guilty about what I said."

"I'm not. I love you and don't want my fear to be a burden on you. Plus, if you're the only person in my corner, I'd still be one lucky bastard."

He pulled my face close to his before kissing me deeply. I kissed him back, and when he pulled away, he had a glimmer in his eyes like an excited child.

"What is it?" I asked him, confused, "I gotta ask you something. But I want you to think before answering. Okay?"

I nodded, "Sounds fair enough."