Never Alone

~10~

Karl's Pov-

Jared was on his bed with Spot on his lap. He had tears running down his face. I walked over to him, and so did Shane. Sap stayed behind me so as not to stress Jared out too much. I sat down in front of Jared, and he kept his eyes planted on Spot.

" What's going on, sweetie?" I asked, placing a hand on his knee.

" I don't want to tell them." He told Shane quietly.

" I know, honey, but you need to," Shane said, placing his arm around Jared and kissing his head.

" You can tell us anything, sweetie. What's wrong?" I asked gently. He took a deep breath and moved closer to Shane.

" I'm having really bad suicidal thoughts, and I feel like when Shane leaves, I might act on them." He admitted. I nodded lightly and moved closer to him.

" I'm so incredibly proud of you for telling me this. What can I do to help?" I asked softly. He just shrugged his shoulders.

" How about while Shane's here you and him talk about ways you think would help you. When he leaves you can talk to us about how to help you. How does that sound?" I asked gently. He nodded and hugged me. He stayed in my arms for a while before pulling away.

" You let us know if you need anything," I said. He nodded, and I stood up. Sap and I walked out, and I shut the door. Sap pulled me into a tight hug and melted into it. We walked back into the living room and sat down. We all talked for about an hour.

" I guess we should get back home." Dream said. We nodded, and Sapnap went to Jared's room. Jared and Shane walked out, and George walked over to Jared.

" I promise I'll let Shane come and see you soon. When we move into the new house, you are more than welcome to come over. I promise when we get moved in next door, I'll let Shane come stay with you." George said. Jared nodded lightly. As we told George and Dream, bye, Jared was holding Shane close.

" I'll get to see you and text you more, baby," Shane said. Jared nodded and let go. They shared a kiss and one more hug. They pulled away and smiled. They left and Jared went to his room. I sighed and went to his room. I heard him sobbing loudly so I knocked. When I got no response, I opened the door. He had a notebook on his lap with a line of cocaine ready to use. He looked up at me and I could see he already used some. I walked over and grabbed the notebook. Sapnap was standing in the doorway, so I handed it to him. I went to Jared's bathroom and got a rag. I put some cool water on it and walked back to him. He was still on the bed crying. I sat in front of him and brought his head so he could look at me. I gently wiped the Coke off of his upper lip and sat the rag on the bedside. He looked at me and his lip quivered. I moved so I was beside him. I pulled him into my arms and held him tightly. I let him cry into my chest and ran my fingers through his hair. Sap walked back into the room and took Spot for a walk.

" Do you want to tell me what's going on?" I asked softly. He just shrugged.

" I feel so lost. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't want to do this. I just want to be fucking dead. I wish I died in the wreck with Mom and Dad." He said honestly. I felt my eyes water at the thought of losing him too. I held him tighter.

" Don't you dare say that, Jared. There is nothing wrong with you sweetie. You are trying so hard to stay alive and I know this. I will always be here for you. I can't lose you. You understand that?" I asked. He nodded lightly and hid his face in my chest.

" I-I-I'm s-s-sorry I-I s-said t-that." He said as his sobs picked up.

" It's okay sweetie. I just don't want to lose you. What is something we can do to take your mind off of all of this?" I asked gently. He just shrugged.