Never Alone

~2~

Karl's Pov-

It's been a week since my parents died. I haven't gotten out of bed. I'm not eating, and if I do, I throw it back up. I didn't want to go back to my old habits, but I couldn't control everything that happened, but I could control this. I'm still hurting myself, but Sapnap doesn't know.

" Karl, I brought you some food," Sap said as he walked into the room. I just turned around. He sighed, and I heard him place the food down. The bed dipped down, and he placed his hand on my shoulder.

" "Karl you need to eat, love." He said softly.

"I'm not hungry." I was hungry, but I didn't have it in me to eat. I didn't like how he had to deal with me.

"You need to eat something you haven't eaten in days, honey." Once again, his voice was soft like honey.

"I said I'm not fucking hungry leave me the fuck alone," I said harshly. I moved so he wasn't touching me.

" Please eat something. It doesn't have to be a lot just something please love." He said gently.

" I can't," I said. I wanted to tell him but I was scared.

" Why not love?" He asked. I sat up and turned to him.

" Sapnap I haven't told you something. I'm sorry." I said. He grabbed my hands and looked at me.

" What is it, honey?" He asked concerned. I took a deep breath and held his hands tightly. He rubbed my hands with his thumb.

" Growing up in high school I had an eating disorder. It was really bad. I ended up being put in a hospital. I never told you because I got it under control. Now it's back. I'm sorry I never told you." I admitted messing with his hands. He moved over beside me and pulled me onto his lap. He wrapped his arms around me tightly.

" It's okay. I understand. Will you let me help you?" He asked softly. I nodded. He got up and grabbed the plates. He walked back over and sat down.

" You don't have to eat all of it. Just eat as much as you can." He said calmly. I nodded and looked at the food. I ate less than half and looked at Nick. He was already done.

" You done honey?" He asked. I nodded and he grabbed the plates.

" I'll be right back." He said taking the plates downstairs. I was lying down and ready to sleep. It was already dark out. I felt sick to my stomach. He walked back in and got into the bed. He pulled me against him and held me tightly.

" I don't feel good," I said quietly.

" I know love. Can I ask you something?" I nodded lightly.

" You said that you went through this in high school. Did you just not eat or was it something else?" He asked softly. I sighed and moved closer to him.

" I wouldn't eat much, and when I did, I would throw it back up," I admitted. He held me tighter and hummed.

" I'll help you as much as I can." He said quietly. I nodded and fell asleep. I woke up to someone calling me. I looked at my phone and it was my sister. I answered it.

" Hello," I said. I had no idea why she was calling at 3 in the morning.

" Hey, I'm so sorry I'm calling so late, but can you come over tomorrow? I need to talk to you about something." She asked. I nodded but realized she couldn't see me.

" Yeah, sure. Why do I need to come over?" I asked, confused and concerned.

" I'll explain tomorrow. You go back to sleep." I sighed and hung up. Sapnap stirred awake and looked at me.