Never Alone

~12~

Karl's Pov-

Sapnap brought me to the living room. On the coffee table were a bunch of flowers, a little bear, and a bag of stuff. I looked at him and we sat down. He handed me the bag and I opened it. It was full of all my favorite snacks. I smiled and looked at him.

" Thank you so much, baby," I said quietly. He nodded and moved closer to me. He placed his hands on my cheeks and leaned his forehead against mine.

" I'm so so sorry Karl. I didn't mean it. I just hated feeling like I was causing you more issues. I want you to be happy. I don't want to be the reason you hurt yourself. I want to be the reason you are happy and healthy. I do need you. More than you know." He admitted kissing my head. I nodded lightly.

" I forgive you. The argument got way off track. I love you so much, Sapnap." I said. I kissed him slowly.

" Me and Jared talked and I told him I would pick him up a new vape soon," Sap said. I nodded.

" Where is Jared?" I asked suddenly.

" I called Dream after you went to the bedroom. He came with Shane and picked him up." He said. I nodded.

" I love you so so much love." He said softly.

" I love you too honey," I said.

" Can I ask you something?" I nodded.

" You said you hurt yourself because of something else. Can you tell me what it was?" He asked softly.

" Everything had been building up lately and I had been clean for a while. Everything just came crashing down. It was bound to happen regardless. If it wasn't for the fact I fell asleep so fast I would have done it last night. It's not your fault baby." I reassured him. He nodded and kissed my head.

" Maybe you should go to therapy too?" Sap suggested. I shrugged.

" I've dealt with this my entire life I'll be fine," I admitted. He sighed and pulled me onto his lap.

" You aren't fine love. It's okay if you need therapy. Maybe we can go and Jared can stay with Shane one day." He said. I shook my head. He rubbed my back gently.

" Why not honey?" He asked softly. I shook my head again feeling tears build up. I went to therapy when I was younger and it didn't go well. It left me with more issues.

" Hey love don't cry. It's okay. I'm not saying you have to. I'm just giving you an idea." He said gently. I nodded lightly.

" You want me to give you a massage?" He asked softly. I nodded and he set me to the side.

" You pick out a movie." He said going to the bedroom. I nodded and grabbed the remote. I turned on a random movie and Nick walked back in. He sat on the couch. One of his legs hung down and the other was lying on the couch. I moved back between his legs.

" Can you take your shirt off, honey?" He asked softly. I took my shirt off and he began to run his hands up and down my back. I sighed and watched TV. He worked his hands up to my shoulders and slowly massaged them.

" I'm going to order some food. What do you want?" He asked softly.

" Pizza with breadsticks," I said. He nodded and ordered the food. I was lying against his chest and his phone rang. He picked it up and put it on speaker.

" Hello," Sap said.

" Hey, I'm just checking on you guys." Dream said.

" Everything is okay. I'm spoiling Karl right now." Sap said with a chuckle.