Friends Again?

Chapter 5

After getting home I just went back to sleep then because my mom took today off he woke me up to eat. I didn't change so when I woke up I was warm for once. I cherished this moment till I had to get up to pee and he was gone and back to watching tv he never worked until night but it was about 2 so he was getting ready to take a shower and just finished his show. He left at 2:30 so I waited and say I fell back asleep but I just sat there and spaced. Wondering what would happen if I was the one pregnant everything would be pain but would I get better for him or her. I mean only one person liked me and I only found that out through a friend and yeah I did like him back he's the only one who would hide from me anyway so I stopped trying to talk to him. I didn't think he cares or was he scared of me. I did lash out at someone who hated me for being skinnier than she was. I was proud but it sorta pushed me to be even more skinny. Maybe I should try again get her to talk to me she if she and he would let me explain myself. Maybe ? My mom interrupted my thoughts of actually liking someone and shook me. "Baby girl I know your tired but you need to eat after you eat you can sleep more i everything okay? What's wrong?" I must of started crying and didn't realize. I had to think of a lie and fast. "It's fine mom just this guy I have feeling for he won't talk to me I met him through Jenny" hopefully she will believe me at least most of it was true. I didn't meet him through Jenny I made her up I didn't want to tell my mom I meet him through my ex friend. I wanted someone to talk to. maybe even care if they left. I wish yet again.