Friends Again?

Bombshells

I left to the car and got into the truck and Cam got into the other side. I can't believe it I broke down into tears and Cam tried to comfort me and I just sat there and cried. Once I calmed down to just sniffle Cam got into the driver side and we drove to his house. I couldn't believe it. I know I should be happy he named it after me. But I always thought the worst the were trying to replace me or Josh just wants to be angry at me for some reason....I don't even know what I did to deserve this. Cam picks me out of the truck and puts me on the couch and cuddles with me. I kiss his neck cause that's all I can reach . He kisses the top of my head. We sit that like him rubbing patterns on my back and me sitting eyes puffy red crying silently I have grown to do so well so that nobody knew something was wrong. Cam is trying to get up and I finally let him. I don't want to let go but I do. He goes and does whatever I go to the bedroom and get my pj clothes on these jeans hurt my tummy and I just want to feel numb so I hope he doesn't mind that I try to sleep. I heard him come towards his bed room and I don't move I don't care. "Goodnight sweetheart I love you" ~~ i wake up and hear cam making food. I smell the air and it smells like ranch burgers. Okay I should wake up. My stomach growls and not the good growl telling me it doesn't like the sound of food but I ignore it like the stomach pains from when Ana was still here. Bully was wrong I think he has left little traces on me but I think so far he's gone Finally I think I'm free. I get up stretch and go to the bathroom and walk out to see Cam crying but trying to cover it. It's probably all my fault why did I care for him....