Friends Again?

Should of thought

"Baby what's wrong?" He jumps but says nothing. I go to kiss him and he kisses back. At least he does that. I touch one of the old hickeys I left and he cringes but smiles. He knows I have control but doesn't mind "Morning miss painful. Food?" I nod but I don't sit in my spot I sit on his lap. And I feed him and he feeds me. I want to know what was wrong but I don't want to make him upset. he can tell me later. When we get done I get up and start to clean up. He stays staring at me doing my work. "Enjoying the view?" He smiles." Hell yeah! I don't think it could get any better" he makes me chuckle but I still work he finally gets up and comes over to me kisses me and slithers his arms around under mine "I love you" he says kissing the top of my head. He's been in a kissing mood lately but I don't mind I love all this attention. "I love you too but can I ask you a question?" He tightens his grips but agrees "why were you crying when I first woke up?" He turns me around and drags me to the couch. "First j have a question for you then...." I nod and he continues "why were you upset when you have your mom the baby back and looked at her crib are you afraid to have a baby?" I see why he was upset now. "No baby never I want kids of my own like you do I know but her name. That's what got me. Her name is Lilly just like mine it's like they are trying to replace me or at least Josh is it was in his hand writing. That could have been mine Cam it scared me that they are trying to replace me with the baby" I start to cry again but Cam is to trying to look into my eyes but he wipes my tears and I wipe his. He starts "Baby if you want we can move be alone together I know you love your mom and the baby maybe not the name but you see it as your own I can tell. But we can visit and everything. I just want to to be happy. You deserve it" I think about it but say this "I dont want to leave all I want to do is leave the house so i don't have to see Josh ever again. I can see my mom pick her up along withy the baby or see them when Josh leaves to go to work every other day or something." He nods and kisses me. "Okay I was worried. You didn't want your own children because I want one with you so bad . I want to show you that I'm here for you that I love you with all my heart" I smile "you already have you have been there for so many problems of mine. I love you too"