Red Diamond (English Version)

RD2 - 009: Like Malachite

Dark Red kept talking.

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A long time passed until I showed up again in a complicated situation, it was when Pearl was accused by her owner and she would go through a trial.

Red wasn't the only one angry with Morganite and that Yellow Zircon. She also wasn't the only one to fear for Pearl having to fight in the Arena.

We were both nervous and anxious. Predicting I could appear and cause some disaster, Red decided to find a random planet where it wouldn't be so bad if I came up.

The planet's population was small and the weaponry almost inoffensive to us. The moment we arrived there, I took over and began destroying everything at reach with my own hands and body. That's why we ended up all dirty and with scratches, but Red took over before I could get rid of it, at the time she was terrible at doing it, then we showed up at the Arena like that after all.

The diamond's faces when they saw us... I laughed internally for a while.

However, it was during Morganite and Yellow Zircon's execution that I saw I wasn't the only one who could enjoy killing. Red was well satisfied with that, even if she reprimanded herself for feeling that way.

I just enjoyed the show.

After Pearl joined us, I came up three times max. Red was so emotionally controlled that I had no way to take our body's control from her and she never gave it to me willingly, even if I said I wouldn't do anything. In that time, we hated each other and we would argue often, besides fighting for our body. Red always had good reasons to hide me and to avoid me coming up, but I couldn't stand being in that empty and dark place of our consciousness anymore.

When Red had that terrible fight with Yellow, almost attacking her, I felt an opportunity would arise. However, knowing that they knew about us and Pearl changed my mind.

The diamond's charges against us made me imagine a close future where we would fight them and our gems would be caught in the crossed fire. Another thing would be Pearl being taken from us and sent to the Test Zone or worse. Without her what would be of us? She didn't only calm Red, but also myself indirectly. If it was already hard being still with her there, without her it would be terrible and I would surely cause trouble with the other diamonds in a way that it would affect all of us.

There was no perspective of a situation where things would be good and our gems would be safe and with us.

When I told the diamonds some things, I left a lot out.

I didn't tell them that Pearly and Topaz often fused, nor that Screamy and Ruby had begun doing the same. I tried talking about our relationship with Pearl in a way that it would look like we were the only ones in love, I mean, that Red was the only one in love.

They had to think that I hated everything and everyone. I only pretended to hate so it would make more sense that I was telling them about the other Red's transgressions, then I would have some credibility. Beyond that, I wanted to make them think that they couldn't do any kind of emotional blackmail with me, just like they ended up doing with Red.

I wanted our friends and beloved to stay away, mainly from me, because I was sure that anytime soon I would do something big and foolish and in the end they would be shattered.

I just never thought that what I did believing I was protecting them was exactly what would cause their deaths.

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At that moment, Dark Red stopped talking with tears in her eyes. She got up and went in the sea, walking some distance until she was completely covered by water. There, she screamed to vent her anger, her pain, her guilt and her sadness. The sound waves caused big undulations in the surface, making some strong waves as if the sea was undertow.