Chasing Evelyn

30

-Elijah Harper-

*TW*

I stare at the casket.

I stare at the casket covered with flowers, and I feel nothing.

I feel so fucking numb right now.

I feel as if when she died, a part of me died.

My eyes flicker to her mother that's crying and her father that's just staring at the casket with no emotions trying to comfort his wife and children the best he can.

My eyes then flicker to her siblings as they have teary eyes. And finally to Claire who's staring off into space with bright red eyes.

I can't do this.

I can't stay here.

I need to get out of here but I can't.

I don't want to say goodbye to her yet.

I can't say goodbye to Evelyn, it wasn't supposed to happen this way. I tried stopping her from going back into that building.

I waited for her to come out but she never did.

And that's when I knew I lost her. I lost the girl I loved and craved for, the only girl I would chase after.

I watched as everyone placed the little white roses on her casket.

I didn't move to put mine on it, I couldn't.

This would be the last thing I have of her. It would be a sad memory but it would be something she loved.

Evelyn loved all flowers. No matter what.

I watched as they lowered the casket into the ground, watching as the love of my life is being put to rest forever.

The only time I moved was to sit by her grave.

I didn't want to leave her. Not yet, I thought we would finally have our happily ever after but we didn't.

I didn't want to be here anymore, I wanted to be with her.

But I know she would want me to live for myself.

But I wanted to live for her. I just don't know how long I'll be able to hold on for.

After a few hours I got up from her grave, not wanting to leave her, I never expected her to lose her life..

Yet she did, if i would've known this would be the position she's in I wouldn't let her go into that building I would've held her back from going in.

I wouldn't have let her risk her life for something she didn't even find.

I slowly walked back to my car and get in it, I wanted her to be home with me I wish I didn't have to watch her being lowered six feet under into the ground.

I was going to find who killed her.

And I'm going to make sure they regret ever laying a hand on my girl.

I drive back to the penthouse we lived in and went straight to our room and going on my computer.

I go to the building she was last seen in and I try to find who laid a hand on her.

But the building was dark when it happened all I could see were two silhouettes.

And the one pulled their gun out pulling the trigger twice making the other drop to the ground.

Which I'm assuming is Evelyn.

I shut my computer and try and figure out what the fuck I should do.

My eyes flicker to every single fucking thing in this room that reminded me of her. Her goal jar, stuffed animals, the flowers and now the white rose I was supposed to place on her casket.