From EX to HUSBAND

CHAPTER 18

We were making the last ascent of the wood, both to reach the road and the car. Masheal stopped and said, "You owe me, don't forget about it", we'll go home, we'll make our breakfast I said happily. Someone fired, I was looking to see someone, and when i turned, i find Masheal, with her hand on her belly full of blood, she was trying to be strong and not fall to the ground, Masheal, I said as she collapsed on the ground and I immediately grabbed.  Masheal no no no no, don't close your eyes, don't go, not right now, not now Masheal please, I don't allow, I don't let you. I lifted my head to see how close it was to the car. Hang on, hang on, don't let yourself go. Don't let go! Don't close your eyes, think of Aynoor, of Mom, they need us, I said caressing her cheeks.

I, Masheal, Masheal, don't leave me  Masheal, not righ now, not like this, you can't go here, you can't go! Masheal  please I said with tears in my eyes she was in full pain in fact she was about to close her eyes. Don't forget i have a promise to you, we'll have breakfast together, with honey and cream, olive paste, tost with butter will also be, than the cheese, please Masheal please. She gave me a light smile and saying "Sorry" closed her eyes. Masheal no, Masheal open your eyes, open Masheal  no, Masheal open your eyes. I didn't believe it at first but when I saw that she popped his head out of my hug I panicked. Masheal, MASHEAL, I screamed hugging her and squeezing her closer to me.I picked her up and ran to the car about 5 minutes away from here.  In one way or another, with the utmost haste we managed to reach the hospital, the closest one.  Ambulance, ambulance I yelled getting her out of the car, I picked her up and in the meantime the doctors arrived and immediately took her to the operating room. 

Masheal, why are you invading my head with your thoughts, why my enemies hurt you it was all my fault.  I was in the waiting room all afternoon, she had to operate for more than 24 hours, I was full of disappointment in my heart so I went home.  I opened the door of the house, Mom and Aynoor hadn't noticed my presence yet, I was at the door thinking when it occurred to me; she was going down the stairs with tea in her hand, I took a few steps to reach the room when passing through the kitchen I remembered that she was working and helping  Hani in the kitchen and when she tied up her hair that was bothering her that time was so cute, I opened the door to the room to immerse myself again in her thoughts.  I sat on the couch, where she slept all this time, all this time i always let her down and hurt her.  Masheal if you could hear me I would have told you from the bottom of my heart that it is enough for me if you open your eyes. I agree to be silent for the rest of my life.

As long as I see your beautiful brown eyes it's enough...don't leave me, don't leave.  I was in tears thinking of all that I could say to my Masheal, but I didn't. The thoughts of her will invade my head, how beautiful she was when she slept, how many times I've woken up to only see her sleeping, but why do I think about it now!  Now it doesn't make sense!  You Rayan, you hurt her and also a lot, now what do you expect from her.  Do you admit that you are starting to fall in love with her?  Do you like her?.  "Son you're safe, Rayan luckily you're home" said Mom and Aynoor, Masheal didn't make it,"How, didn't she make it? What does that mean", they both said worried, "We have to leave for the hospital immediately, now Rayan".  They went to get their bags while I went to change.  Not even a few weeks ago she was here in front of me and i was helping her put on the saree, but then again this matter of the dress, I'm a fool, how can I force a girl who is now my wife to wear what I wanted for my ex and then Masheal complied without saying too much.  She is the one who is suffering the most in this relationship it's all my fault, the fault of a fool like me.  After a while, i left for the hospital with Mom and Aynoor,  Dad and Hamza were already there as well. 

The waiting in front of the operating room door was very anxious none of us spoke the whole time, none of us communicated to Masheal's parents, what will they think, they had fostered their daughter to me and I couldn't  take care of her, I feel guilty in everyone's eyes.
AYNOOR
Mom, didn't this surgery take a little long?, "She lost a lot of blood, doctor said that",  said Mom, Mom please, let her recover, please let her be saved, my best friend be well, Masheal get well soon, " We hope, she will be fine". I've never seen my brother like this I said turning to find him anxious at the door, "Me too, he cares about Masheal more than we think", so why is he acting like that towards her, he always hurts her and she never say nothing, " I only hope that my poor girl Masheal is fine", I hope so Mom.