From EX to HUSBAND

CHAPTER 31

Asslam o alikum, I said as I entered in the house, even though it was just a few steps away, in these almost 5 months I had never returned here, "Wa alaikum salam beta, how are you?" asked grandmother who was sitting in the living room , I'm fine, you tell me, how are you?, I said reaching up and hugging her, "I'm fine, you did really good to come here", hmmm don't worry I'm here with you now, "For how long? Did you fight with Rayan? The daughters are fine in their own homes”, grandmother I just came, let's forget everything, “Hmm it's fine”, she said as everyone joined since I had come, “Heiii Mashael how are you cousin”, said Bilal joining me, I I'm fine, you tell me how the study is going, "Forget the shield, you live a few steps from us and have you never been able to come here? This is unfair my cousin", don't complain, I have a house to manage since I'm married, you're the one who's still studying, "Beta, when daughters get married later their responsibilities increase", said the aunt turning to Bilal, hmmm you're right aunt, "Masheal tell me what you want to eat, you came home after so long, i want to cook what you want to eat",

well aunty, don't worry i came for a long vacation so prepare what you want, anyway if not today then another day you will cook my favorite dishes, "This is fine, but did you have a fight with Rayan?", ohhh why everyone with this question, between me and Rayan nothing happened either before and nothing now, "What do you mean?", asked grandmother and after saying the sentence I realized that I shouldn't say it because they think me and Rayan were the happiest couple, ehhhh granny I meant... neither now me and Rayan have had a fight and neither... nor in future we'll fight, I said the first thing that occurred to me mind, "In Sha Allah beta, now go and rest, you are at your parents' house so rest as long as you want", grandmother...I also rested there, they didn't tortured me, I said laughing, "I know beta, I know your mom is very good but now you can rest even more since you're at your parents' house", hahaha okay grandma then I'm going to my room, aunt if you need call me, i will try to help you, i said before reaching my room. 

When I opened the door to my room, I was shocked everything was just as I left it, nothing had moved, I went inside and went to change my saree to something light though now I was used to wearing the saree so it didn't bother me anymore.  It had already been a long time since I was at my grandmother's house, after having changed I sat on the bed thinking, in this house I am freer...I can do what I want and when I want, I don't feel observed by anyone, even if the Mom and Dad's house was perfect because they always made me feel at home but Rayan's presence was different, he made me anxious, I was afraid of making a mistake....I was thinking about this when Haris and Bilal entered the room.

"Heyyy Masheal, long time since we meet again" said Haris, you are right my little cousin, "Well little cousin I wouldn't say", you are younger than me so for me you are my little cousin, I said laughing, "Ha ha I'm more taller than you", he said thinking about it, height doesn't matter dear man, "Okey Haris enough, we came here...indeed I came here to ask you something", Bilal said sitting down on the sofa next to the bed, tell me I'm listening, "Tell me the truth, because you can lie to the family but not with me doesn't" he said very seriously, what did I do tell me what you want to ask, "You had a fight with Rayan is that why you came here?", hmmm no no it's not like that, "What you had a fight with Rayan bahi" said Haris, oh ho enough you two, I didn't fight with anyone,

"Masheal tell me the truth maybe we can help you" said Bilal, ufff noo we didn't fight....ohh maybe at least I think, "What an answer is this", Bilal, I came here because I was tired...but we didn't fight like, we've been doing this for 5 months so when I left home it wasn't a fight but a normal situation that I always had..... you understand?  "No! You explained terrible, tell me calmly", I didn't argue with him because things were never settled, it's a habit for us to stay like this now, in the sense of having these discussions or not talking to each other...I resisted for many months but now I was completely destroyed both physically and mentally, "Hmm so you're telling me that since the beginning of the marriage things have been like this?", yes indeed at the beginning they were worse now they are still the same...but many things I just ignore so as not to argue..."I'm so sorry that uncle made this decision for you", now that's over I would say forget about it, "You really have courage", said Haris after listening to all the dialogue between me and Bilal, alright enough to be sad, I came after so long, tell me something you are the only two cousins ​​I have,

"Well we are fine, no news, everything as it was before", said Bilal and Haris nodded, so you're telling me that your life is only going on... how boring you are, "Eh now it's like this!", in this span of time a thousand things could have changed but nothing for you all the same... ..any girl you like?  I asked laughing, "No no, look, nothing love, there's no good ending here", Haris said laughing, well, you are right not to fall in love, because first it's Bilal's turn, and then you're still little, "Masheal I'm 19 years old so I'm only one year younger than you", well younger and younger you are!  You tell me Bilal ... "Well maybe yes .... I like a girl but I don't know", ohhh who is she and where does she live?  Did you meet at university?  "Well now I have to go out, so I'll tell you one more time, tell me do you want me to bring you something to eat?", Noooo but are you trying to escape?  Hahahaha, "No Mashael hahahaha I have an errand to do that I remembered and I'm going before it gets too dark", hmmm alright then bring me something spicy to eat and add the chips and chocolate, "No Bilal Bahi even after  the marriage she hasn't changed…she hasn't grown,” Haris said surprised, hahaha what does it mean after marriage I can't eat these things?  "I'm running late so you two can discuss another time...Masheal are the flavors of the chips and chocolate the same or do you have new flavors that you liked?", no no everything is the same as before, "Okay Haris come with me you", "But why I have to make out with you, go alone", but after Haris was convinced to go.

I was sitting alone in the room, who knows if Rayan will have missed me in his room, maybe I'm demanding too much from him, but maybe he.... when he enters in the room and doesn't see me something will have changed but if so then he could send me some messages nahhhh he doesn't do these things, he was happy that I wasn't there now he can do what he wants in peace no one can stop him.  I looked out the window, i could see their villa, the garden of the villa, nobody was there really?, I think everyone is in their rooms at this time, I went to the other window which was on the other side of the room where i could see the street just outside the two villas, hmmmm everything was quiet as it should be no one cared that i wasn't with Rayan... i didn't even get disappointed because in the end i made the decision to leave i sat down on the bed, picked up the phone in hand, I waited for his message that would never arrive.