From EX to HUSBAND

CHAPTER 24

I woke up, at dawn, I don't know why but I wasn't sleepy anymore, I went to see Rayan who was sleeping, I stared at him for a while, what was happening to me, why I couldn't control myself when I was in front of him, something in me was changing, but even though i didn't want my feelings towards him to increase,... my greatest fear  was falling in love with him like i used to be, still our relationship was not so strong that i could love him, other than i didn't even want to but I knew that all this was not going to work out because he has never loved me, he doesn't love me and he won't love me, I said to myself sighing.  I got out of bed so that I could go and change, i covered him with the duvet because I could see that he felt cold, I didn't stay too long with him because he could wake up at any moment, and in fact I went to the bathroom to get dressed. 

It didn't take me long in fact after about half an hour I was already out of the bathroom, i made the bed and left the room, Bi jaan was awake she was reading the Quran, I didn't disturb her and i went out into the garden to take  fresh air, the sun was already risen so it was already 7 in the morning, the whole village was waking up, everyone was starting to reach their destinations, "Ap ko mera hath pakrna bura to nhi laga", his voice rang in my head  in my mind again with this question, I adored the moment he took my hand, I adored all the moments of last night, I don't know since when but I liked having him near, what if I fell in love with him?, I wondered but  my heart didn't have an answer to that, i didn't know how i really felt in fact i didn't think too much and came in to help bi Jaan in the kitchen. 

“It suits you so much this colour ” said bi jaan while I was helping her with breakfast, ohh thank you bi jaan, “You have learned well to wear the Saree”, hmm eh yes yes, “Rayan likes Saree very much, you do well to dress the way your husband wants", why only I have to make an effort to keep this relationship going, Bi jaan why he doesn't know how to make me happy?, "Beta, he knows everything, if you are taking the first step then give time to him to accept everything", I don't think, I have accepted yet bi jaan but why you all just give directions to me, how to have a good relationship, why he is not prevented from anything and In fact he does what he wants, "So it seems to you, it's your job to try to understand what your husband thinks about you, you have to make other women unattractive to him", bi jaan i am nothing in front of him, neither me nor he accepted this husband and wife relationship, "Beta I repeat, you try everything will be fine," she said leaving the kitchen to go pick fresh fruit, I don't know bi jaan, I don't know why but everything seems so difficult, I said preparing breakfast. 

I was thinking about everything bi jaan had told me, why I had to take the first step when I'm sure he doesn't care, why everyone expects everything from me.... "What are you doing with these blankets in your hand", I heard bi jaan ask Rayan, uufff i hope he can handle the situation i thought and meanwhile i heard rayan's voice justifying himself to bi jaan, "no no, heh heh last night was very cold so we needed another blanket ...now I'm going to fix it", no no no!  What a useless excuse, surely bi jaan will understand, i said standing in the kitchen and continuing to prepare breakfast while Rayan, after putting down the blankets, went to cut wood for the fireplace. 

"Beta, I hope you had a peaceful night, without any problems, it wasn't too cold, was it?" asked bi jaan entering the kitchen with the basket of fresh fruit, no no Bi Jaan everything was perfect, don't worry, "breakfast takes some time to prepare, in the meantime you go and give water and a towel to Rayan who is working outside", Bi jaan I have to go?, i inside pointing my hands towards me, "Yes you, you're his wife, these are the nice little things that make the relationship grow", bi jaan but he can come inside himself and he can take them himself, "Beta, good wives don't do that, don't think that you can't take the first step, if you see that he is shy then you raise your arm towards him", hmmm bi jaan, i said taking the glass and the towel. What does bi jaan know what he thinks about me, he is not happy with me and that fact no one can change I said grumbling to myself as I was going out to reach Rayan, he was chopping wood, I stopped next to him, after he cut the last piece of wood, I handed him the towel and then the glass of water, he gladly accepted everything, I don't know why but when he was drinking the water he didn't take his eyes off me, I took everything and was ready to go into the house, I don't know, if I did it on purpose or it was spontaneous but halfway I stopped and I turned to look at him, he hadn't started working in fact he was there motionless waiting for me to turn around, I gave a slight smile and went on while he looked at me, yes but he remained motionless by now this boy had forgotten how to laugh, I said to myself  as i opened the front door.

After setting the table i heard my phone ringing i wanted to ignore it but then i thought of Azlan so before breakfast i went straight to answer it meanwhile Rayan had finished chopping wood . “Masheal, this is Aynoor” she said in a panic, what happened and then I have your number saved, “No no but in a panic I said what came to my mind”, are you ok right?  Are you all well at home?, "Yes, everyone is fine here, today Azlan  had arrived  here", what like?  Nooo and what he said, "Masheal, he didn't tell me his name is Azlan but he told me his name Mustfa, I recognized him because you showed me", I didn't understand?  Why did he introduce himself like this, what did he tell you at the beginning?  “He asked about Rayan and when I told him you two left for the countryside, after which he completely changed the topic” so he introduced himself like that to you but why did he do it?, “Masheal, I pretended that I didn't know him, and in fact he asked me questions about you and then started flirting with me", listen carefully, in a few days we will go home, in the meantime, if he arrives, try to manage the situation and don't tell him that you know him,

"Something here doesn't add up to me", neither do I...I don't understand why he didn't introduce himself with his real name, "I'll keep you updated", that's fine and be careful, if he calls back, it's a bit strange so he can also search for your number so be careful, "He gave it to me, he gave me a sheet with his number", Listen carefully Aynoor, don't contact him, he has no good intentions, as soon as I arrive then let's see how to handle all this , "Okey then it's up to you", alright, don't worry and be careful, I was still finishing the sentence when Rayan entered the room, "Who has to be careful?", and I cut the call, no no nobody I was just talking to Aynnor, and I tried to walk out of the room, "Masheal stop!", and I stopped, "What happened", no nothing, nothing happened, I'm going to have breakfast I'm hungry, and I walked out of the room too after shortly came out, I think he had suspicions now.