Please Don't Save Me [BkDk]

Class visit

Uraraka POV:(Chapter 6)
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Blood
Swearing
Mentions Of Suicide
Mentions Of Intrusive Thoughts
Mentions Of Attempted Suicide
Mentions Of Self Harm
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I'm sitting in the waiting room of the hospital deku-kun was admitted into, tears were streaming down my cheeks as I shook in my seat as tsu was on my left trying to comfort me.

Part of me is debating what could have caused this and the other half of me is blaming myself, I mean who wouldn't blame me?!

I've made plans with Mina with everybody but deku-kun because.. the one time I asked he said he was studying- s-so I just thought he was e-every other t-time.

I'm such a terrible friend, g-god I was the reason for this wasn't I, o-oh my god i-i was..

I hear tsu trying to reassure me, but it isn't enough, I know I made him do it, I excluded him, I didn't invite him to anything..

Tears start streaming down my face and I feel a lump in my throat form as I hug my legs to my chest and cover my face in my knees.

Time seems to fly by as the clock ticks by, one hour gone in a second, then the next, I feel sick to my stomach knowing I've prob- no.i know I caused this.

I don't feel sick because of the situation I feel sick knowing I'm the cause of everyone's misery right now, Bakugo-kun, iida-kun, todoroki-kun, kirishima-kun and everyone else in the class, and all the teachers.

I can feel their stares on me, blaming me, judging me, knowing how I did this, noone can tell me otherwise, it all adds up, the timing, the distancing, the speechless days and deku-squad hangouts we would go through, because I was there.

If only..I wasn't so ignorant and never interfered with him or anyone to begin with, if only I helped my family more so I didn't have to come to UA and cause this for deku-kun.

I'm a failure..

What if he dies because of me..

What if he disappears..

All.because.of.me..

Shit..

I really am useless..

I'm going to cause my own best fri-..

Classmates..death..

I don't deserve to be called a friend after causing this..

Never, will I be called a friend after this..

Never..

A ring in my ear distracts me for a minute..or was it a minute? I don't even know at the moment..

But what I do know is that tsu has stopped harassing me..just finally leaving me to be on my own so noone can distract me again..

Finally.

Then it goes black, I don't know what happened, perhaps I died? No no to soon, maybe I fell asleep after the continuous crying? No wrong again, the only other option were to be to faint..why would I faint..why did that happen?

I think as I seem to float in an endless void of eternity, I don't have a thought in my head, just floating, I'm not sitting yet not standing but not falling..?

But I'm not using my quirk either, that is what gets to me, how am I passed out floating in an endless void?

I'm not sure but it's calm in here, no sound, no movement, no disruption..I wish I could stay this calm forever, it's almost eerie but peaceful.

The awkward yet calm silence seems to stop, but how could it stop since it's still calm? But the ringing..that stupid fucking ringing is back to taking me again.

Why when all is well must some awkward or distraught or annoying piece of shit come ruin my- OUR lives?!

Take me for being a softie because this is the end of my sanity, a fellow classmate committing in our dorms because of me, ringing that won't go away for me taunting me..

Why won't everything just shut up?!

I just want it quiet but no.

It has to restart every time, why does it restart every time?

I always question myself that, I seem fine, everyone else seems fine and everything seems to be going amazing and perfect and then life hits us again.

First villain attacks in the first week, sports festival goes terrible as people start attacking us and then the announcement of new villains at large.

It couldn't of got any worse until this came across and ruined everything, it was all perfect..but..to be a hero..surely you have to go through some sort of incomplete able trauma?

Since that's just the way of the world somet- all the time sorry.

We need to be properly trained to be heroes in the near future and reliable for the citizens of Musutafa and to protect them in future wars which are to come with great denial.

So it's just enough fair trade to have to go through some trauma and experiences so we can relate to the citizens in the future and make sure we can understand and complete things without worry, doubt and judgement in the future.

If we can make it that far.

The ringing starts getting louder, it sort of sounds like an annoying child beeping someone nose and saying in a high pitch voice "beeeeeeeeee"

Then there's colour again, no more darkness and calmness, there's chatter amongst people from the sounds of it, I lift my head to find my self still sitting where I was..

I glance at a clock and squint my eyes reading the time, before feeling surprised upon reading 'Five past three' in the evening.

After quick realisation and some calculation I had figured out how I had been asleep or fainted or..whatever for five continuous hours.

I mutter a quiet "Ridiculous" there is no way in a calm dark room would I have been there for five hours in a figment of my imagination?

That is impossible clearly, right?

Maybe I could get that checked out some time incase I'm not going crazy and have simply just fell asleep and was thinking while falling to sleep or when I was awake, yeah, that's seems reasonable.

Not some stupid dilemma of being dead, passed out or possessed by some ghost or something.

That truly is ridiculously stupid of me to think like seriously?

Who on earth would experience that?

I must be going insane or something.

Suddenly a high voice interrupted my thoughts and spoke "Is anyone hear to see an Izuku Midoriya?" all of us stood up which were awake while some worked their way to awake the sleeping others.

"He's awake"

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1113 words!!

Have an amazing day/noon/night

I'm sorry about the late update, I really had trouble finding inspiration to finish this chapter

I'm also sorry for leaving you on a cliffhanger but I wanted to give you this part so noone were to think me as lazy

I hope your all ok, I'll try update as soon as possible but I can't make any promises with all the tests I am having to do at school, it's stressing me out

Yet again goodbye lovelies and have a good rest of your day and I hope you enjoyed

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