The boy I wanna kiss- Rinney

that's all I want

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A/N: so sorry for the late chapter but school has been a lot and writing block hit me with blunt force trauma to the head

I created chaos in the last chapter 💀

TW: homophobia, mentions of alcoholism

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*Robin's POV*

The hour had moved past lunch and then closing in on dinner time. But me and Finney did nothing but sit on his bed. The usual happy space themed covers felt at the moment, just as dark as we felt. There was nothing to be said. We were caught. They've found out. It was only a matter of time until Finney's uncle Ben and aunt May finds out. We are both sitting here, waiting for it all to fall apart. Waiting for everything we've done and been through rip away from us.
I slowly looked up at Finney who stared at the floor. His look being empty and tired. His eyes were red and puffy from crying. Tears filled the rim of his eyelids, risking to fall. Tear streaks imprinted on his cheeks. His hair was messy from running his hand anxiously through it multiple times. He basically looked absolutely heartbroken. Seeing the boy that I love look like this didn't make me feel any better. It made me feel like the most horrible person in the world. Maybe, just maybe, if I hadn't confessed my feelings at that goddamn party, Finney wouldn't have to go through this. Maybe I wouldn't have to either. I just had to like boys. I just couldn't be a regular guy whose plans were to marry some beautiful girl.
I heard Finney exhaling a shaky breath before speaking,
"I just want you to know, no matter what happens" Finney finally dared to look up at me,
"I love you." There wasn't that usual warm smile Finney would give me when he said that. There were no sun shining on him or music playing. It was broken, raw, hurt. He said those words with much less happiness. Almost like a regret or a realization. A realization that nothing could stay the way it was forever.
I guess both of us kind of knew in the back of our minds that one day we would be met by this. But it just felt so unreal that it happened today. And all because we weren't careful enough. We took our parents (and guardians) suspicions for granted and thought they wouldn't notice. How could we truly be so stupid? How could we not see how obvious we were being?
"I love you too." I said back in the same kind of tone. I carefully ghosted my hand over Finney's before placing it on his. I felt Finney turn his hand upwards under mine as he looked down at our hands. I let me hand accept the warmth of his before slowly laying down on my back, Finney following behind. I squeezed his hand and admired his summer tanned skin. His hands were soft and gentle, like always.
They wouldn't be too hard on us, right?

"..Boys? Can you come down here? We need to talk." I heard Finney's aunt May shout from the downstairs.

*Finney's POV*

Chills went down my spine as I heard May yell for us to come downstairs. This was it. This is the moment where I'm gonna be sent off and never see my family again. Maybe I'm overreacting? Who am I kidding.
I looked at Robin who already was looking at me. No words were said as we both got up, slowly making our way down the stairs. We passed Gwen who stood at her open door frame in curiosity. I avoided looking at her so she wouldn't see my cried out eyes.
The stairs creaked by the weight of our tired hesitant steps. When we peeked around the corner into the dining room, we saw Ben, May, Brian and Robin's mom all sitting at the table. I didn't dare to look at Robin. Everything just felt so wrong.
May looked up at me with a calm look,
"Sit down" she said. I kept my gaze down as I slowly sat down across from the adults. I could hear Robin doing the same and sitting down next to me. Instead of yelling or screaming, we were met by suffocating silence. No one spoke. No one moved. It felt like no one was breathing.