Too Late To Realise

Forever....

The hug calmed me down (I thought so at least ) but just seconds later I felt warm tears rolling down my cheeks. Aman looked down at me with his eyes full of concern and care. I felt embarrassed and was about to walk away but Aman held my arm and stopped me and looked at me with the 'tell me everything right now look so I had to tell him everything.
"The thing is that no one had really hugged me until now, not even my mom. And when you hugged me and comforted me I just got overwhelmed." I said wipping my tears.
He held my hands and rubbed his thumb at back of them, looked deep into my eye and said
"You are the most amazing friend I have ever had and I have never met a girl like you and I dont want to loose you ever. Its like you have become a habit for me and I want this habit to last forever. I promise you that I  will never leave you and will be by your side forever. I am soo sorry that you felt we were drifting apart but trust me you are the last fucking thing I would wanna loose. I have never said this but seriously I cant even imagine a day without you Amayra"
Untill he finished he had held my face into his palms and looked at ms with that adorable look in his eyes.
My heart skipped hearing those words and being so close to him. All I could think was "So he did care for me and I wasn't the only one being so attached."
It was such an adorable moment but it was interrupted by Sam. He took one loom at us and asked
"What's going on here ?"
I told him that we were just hanging out.
"Anyways what are you doing here?"
I asked
"You werent answering any texts and calls and I wanted to hangout as we so I decided I would pay a visit big when I went to your home your mom said you were on the terrace so I came here to look for you.''
He replied
I stood in amusement realising that I was so lost in the conversation with Aman that I had put my phone on silent and didn't even realise it.
But then Aman had tk leave as Mia had called for like a thousand times in the last 15 mins and Sam and I were left alone on the terrace.
We chatted for a while staring at the beautiful sky partially full of clouds and then he asked.
''Do you like Aman? I get the vibes that you do''
The question was the last thing I would wanna answer right now. But I had to. He was my boyfriend and needed to know the truth. So I said
''Well I wont lie, yea I do feel for him, he is dating Mia and he loves her and I know he wouldn't see me in that way.''
Sam said with a slight smile on his face
''Amayra, thank you for being honest with me and not hiding the truth. All I want is one chance to prove my love for you. If you dont fall for me I promise I wont turn into a toxic person.'' We both laugh a bit at his last sentence as he continues '' you know I am jealous of Aman he is so lucky someone like you fell for him but at the same time I pitru him for not realising that.''
His words were as soft as a feather but sharp as a knife at the same time. This boy had fallen for me and really loved me. So I held his hand and said
'' I can make any commitments but yea I want to give you a chance. Only on one condition tho.''
He looked at me curiously
I said
''Our friendship wont be affected if we dont end up together.''
He noded happily and we sat there watching the sun slowly go down. I was hesitant but Sam gently moved closer and made me rest my head on his shoulder as he held my hand. I had never felt like this before and it felt nice to have someone.
The day had been full of emotions and I told all about it to Jay. Jay knew each and everything about me and was the most trusted person in my life.
Jay always had the best solutions and our opinions matched on most of the points but today he said something that I didnt agree on at all.