Too Late To Realise

She is changing and I hate it..

Amans's POV

After The fight with Sam that day no matter how much I tried to talk to Amayra she avoided me as if she never knew me and we were strangers. The last time she ignored me was almost the same but this time it was something different. She had stated changing gradually and now whenever I look at her I just see a new stranger. She is gradually becoming someone I never knew. I just couldn't get through her doo I just asked Jay to be with her and ensure That she would move on And wont do anything wrong. The innocence she had and the way she was gentle and sensible in very situation was what made her different from all the other girls. But I guess I couldn't protect the innocent and pure angle I knew.
Sam had said a lot of stuff that day which had my mind in an extreme questionable state. I want to know what it meant and why did he say it. I wanted answers to alot of questions and the only person who could give the answers was Amayra. But she was still ignoring me. I had to accept the fact that I probably had lost all the friends who I thought were more than family for me.
Sam who was mre than a brother to me had just spoiled my friendship with my bestfriend out of jealousy. Mia who kept saying that she loved me had broke my hear, trust and took away my bestfriend just for her own good. Amongst all this Amayra ghe only person who really cared for me got manipulated ny my toxic girlfriend and at the end she ended up heart-broken and changes herself.
I have never felt so lonely in my entire life.
Months had past after the fight. None of us have talked and none of us are in anyways in contact with each other. Now its December, the month when our school has the final farewell party. I had never been excited fir that shit but now, siting alone even tho I have many other people I can text or hangout with and make plans for the party but I don't want to do any of that. Just sitting here at the beach I remember how Amayra had plans for the farewell since forever. How We had promised we would go for shopping together.
Damn why can't I get her off my mind. This is even harder than moving on from a break up. She was like a habit ans such a habit to which I didnt even realise when I got addicted to.

I was sitting in the cafeteria and Amayra happened to sit at the table right next to our's with her new friends. And they were talking about some horrible break up of someone, that's when Amayra said the most unexpected thing. I overheard her saying
''Love is just useless nothing like that exists. And those who fall in love are basically in an illusion and that illusion breaks at a point.''
I just couldn't sit there so I just got up and left. My friends tried to stop me but I couldn't take it anymore.
Did she now think of all the feelings in that way ?
Idk where the fuck did my bestfriend go but definately this was nit her.

Time passed by and I somehow got used to the new regular. And now its just a day for the farewell.
I would most probably not go there. But my retards won't stop insisting.
So I just tagged along with them fir the shopping but there I saw Amayra checking out dresses and surprisingly her new fond friends were not to be seen anywhere.
I just couldn't stop myself so I approached her and ......