Too Late To Realise

Scars and Changes

I saw Aman walking towards Sam but I held him back before he did anything to Sam. I could see Sam's eyes widen up as I came in front from the back. The next thing I did was to slap him hard across his fucking face. 

He didn't even look at me and muttered 

" am sorry. " 

All I could say was

 "why"

He replied in a very low tone

" Look I really love you okay! And what u just saw was a mistake babe"

Damn the audacity he had to still spit those words out. And ofc that triggered me and my anger burst out and I straight away ranted...

" Oh so now u say u love me after back bitching about me with Mia and well taking away my bestfriend. U were just kissing this girl as if she was the love of your life. you told Mia that i was blindly in love an emotional fool and would forgive you even if I found out but guess what u were wrong. I wont forgive this shit but yea you were right about one thing! I am an emotional fool I shouldn't  have trusted you soo much. And even if I ignore you cheating on me what about  the way u made me brk my friendship wid Aman? You were an angel once but now you are just a monster Sam!"

After hearing this Sam just lost it and fucking almost yelled

" Yea I did manipulate you! but you were so close to Aman and I knew you had feelings for him and I just couldn't bear that soo I decided to have what is mine he cannot take away what is mine! And you are so fucking stupid that's not my fault"

I yelled back at him

" I am not a fucking thing that you can own!.."

but I was cut short on my words when Aman punched Sam. 

"Don't even dare to address her or talk to her in that way Sam!" 

Sam and Aman had a huge fight and they stopped only when I told Aman to stop. I just couldn't stand there anymore my life which I thought was full of good friends and happiness had just shattered fully into pieces and there was nothing left now. Aman offered to drop me back but I just wanted some time alone and then returns home. Thank god mom was out and I was home alone atleast I could cry in peace. My phone had died and as soon as I switched it on it was full of notifications from Sam and Aman. I hated them both right Now. One of them had cheated in me and the other chose others manipulation over our friendship. It was just too much for me to deal with. I couldn't understand what just happened. It felt like I was All alone all to myself with no friends. I cried myself to bed that night.
In the upcoming days I avoided Sam, Aman and Mia as if I never knew them. Aman still kept trying to talk bit I knew if I would all the memories and all what happened would come back an I would burst into tears. It was hard for me to move on from the betrayal I got from my so called ''friends'' no matter how much I tried I just couldn't forget it all. I was filled with rage and sadness. I guess thats what caused the change in my behaviour that time and annoyed Jay.
Jay knew everything and would always comfort me but one day he just lost his calm and warned me strictly if I didnt regretting shit he would be mad at me. And thats where I just broke down. I burst into tears and let it all out. All the anger, sadness, regret everything just came rushing. And I didn't know how to control myself. Jay hugged me and held me untill I was calm again. I calmed down and then Jay said
''Look what happened isn't your fault you are perfect its Sam who is wrong. Not even Aman all The fault goes to Sam and Mia here. So just dont be sad and depressed foe them they are Not worth your tears. Just promise me you wont cry for those jerks again.''
He got through me and I promised him I wont breakdown again.
I guess Jay's little motivational and  comforting speech was necessary and I had expressed it all so I felt lighter that day. Of course it took me sometime to.move on but I did. My personality tho changed fully gradually. I went from being a sweet, cute and innocent girl to being this silent and rude person.
I made some new friends and well they were messed up but sweet.