Beneath the Blazer (A Sebtana Fanfiction)

Chapter Seven: Somebody Loses Their Mind

Santana's POV

I felt the warmth of another person on my body. Suddenly I remembered last night, I had returned to Sebastian's hospital room and slid into his small mattress. In order to keep him comfortable as possible, I had curled up into a ball at his side, giving him all of the blankets still.

He was the one in the hospital after all, I pulled off a blanket that a nurse must have brought in at some point, and kissed Sebastian's cheek. "Good morning Sebastian, I'm going to get some coffee and breakfast. Don't do anything while I'm gone."

I felt deep inside that he could not hear me, but the doctors knew more than I did and if they trusted that he could hear, I trusted as well. Even if he couldn't, being able to speak to him put me at ease. I walked down the hallways of the hospital wing until I found a small restaurant outside of the ICU.

I bought some food and headed back to Sebastian's room. I looked down at my tray, realizing I bought him a coffee too. I started to cry over the hot drinks. He can't be gone. Can he?

Once I got myself back together, I walked back into the room. The familiar sounds of the machines keeping his heart beating greeted me. I placed his coffee on the table next to him and took my place in the chair by the window. It was uncomfortable but as long as I had Sebastian here, I didn't really care about that - or anything for that matter.

I began talking to him, hoping that something would trigger a reaction. I began with talking about Blaine, how happy he was that you were okay and right down to what he and Kurt wore. Eventually I was describing everyone, Rachel, Quinn, Britt, Artie. Things happened, time passed and eventually I was telling my comatose friend about highschool and life at McKinley. When I got to talking about my coming out, I started to get emotional. "I just didn't know how to react or what to do from that moment on. I just wanted to be loved, you know?"

"I know" the voice made my head snap up, I went from picking at the toast from the shop to staring into the green eyes I never thought I'd see again.

"Sebastian" I whispered breathlessly. I jump out of my chair, unaware of what I should do. I run out of the room and scream for a doctor until one shows up, I recognize him as one of many that have been in and out of Sebastian's room. He calls for a response team and they all go into action.

Sebastian's POV

The doctors swirl in like a storm, it's hectic but I know it needs to happen. Eventually, it dulls down again, many of the doctors leave the room with the exception of 2, one checks and adjusts the machines around me and the other asks me questions. I look over to the window to see an eager looking Santana staring at me.

"Now Mr. Smythe, since this was an attempt for suicide I cannot let you leave just yet, we need to run some tests. I'm also going to check you into the Mental Healthcare ward, and book you some appointments with the hospital therapist. Any other details regarding discharge, fees, and any questions or concerns you have will be dealt with there. I'm glad you're alright though.

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Hours pass, I'm inside the psych ward room. A large white 8 is stained to the glass and I stare at the wall waiting for discharge papers to be brought back to the room. Santana sits in a thick recliner they brought from another room, just incase I do not get out today.

"I called Blaine, he says he and Kurt will be flying in at the end of the month to come and see you. He'll call you when you get home. He's happy to hear you're awake"

"That's nice of them" I whisper, the meds the team have me on are draining all of my energy.

"I thought so, your parents are also thrilled. Evan said your mom couldn't bare to see you like this so you have to go and visit them when you get out."

"I don't want to see my father, Santana"

"Seba-"

"I can't see him. He's going to be so mad and so disappointed."

"Sebastian, no. You're his son and he loves you more than life itself. Even if he doesn't always show it, you are his priority"

"We'll see I suppose." I say as another doctor pushes through the glass.

"Hello Mr. Smythe, my name is doctor Taylor and I'm here to arrange your discharge. You are required to come and visit us once a week and check in, these visits will be full of mental tests to restore you back to a brand new, happy lifestyle. You will also be put on suicide watch for 6 to 8 months. Meaning, any and all suicide attempts or self harm will result in a more permanent hospital setting. I'm also putting you on an anti depressant and requesting that you visit any of these listed therapists," he pauses to hand me a pink sheet of paper "failure to visit a therapist will result in 4 visits a week and 10 to 12 months on suicide watch."

"Okay"

"I know you have a dorm in Julliard, should we contact your room mate if anything goes wrong?"

"Yeah I guess, Rory McGuire is his name."

"A secondary emergency contact? Parents?"

"No, Santana Lopez. I am his secondary EC." Santana says eagerly from the corner.

"Alright, and you will have full discharge tomorrow. I'll get out of your hair, thank you Sebastian."

I rolled over to face Santana. She smiled warmly. "I love you." I whispered.

"I love you too" She said before my heavy eyelids closed.

Hello kittens!

It is I! I didn't die, school has just been super overwhelming. But my last day is Wednesday before exams and then I'll get back to regular posting!

So Sebby is okay and Santana is TOTALLY into him. Cute, right? More twists and turns yet to come!

Lots of love.

Kaitlyn x 

P.S. thank you all for the MAD support and comments! Your messages are always so sweet. Also thank you to those who have taken time to DM me so we can actually speak! It's been great to talk to you guys! See you soon xoxoxo