Lunar Black: A Twilight Story

Chapter 12: Realization

(A/N: The song is 'Bet on It' by Zac Efron. The video is from High School Musical 2.)

Edward's POV:

I was sitting there in the cell after I ended the call with Bella. I missed her.

I was listening to YouTube music when this song called 'Bet on It' was recommended to me. I pressed it and listened to it.

Everybody's always talking at me
Everybody's tryin' to get in my head
I wanna listen to my own heart talking
I need to count on myself instead

(Did you ever?) Lose yourself to get what you want
(Did you ever?) Get on a ride and wanna get off
(Did you ever?) Push away the ones you should have held close
Did you ever let go? Did you ever not know?

I'm not gonna stop
That's who I am
I'll give it all I got
That is my plan
Will learn from what I lost
You know you can
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it
I'm gonna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say?
Bet on it, Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it

How will I know if there is a path worth taking?
Should I question every move I make?
Thought I've lost my heart, it's breaking
I don't wanna make the same mistake

(Did you ever?) Doubt your dream will ever come true
(Did you ever?) Blame the world but never blame you
(I will never) Try to live a lie again
I don't wanna win this game, if I can't play it my way

I'm not gonna stop
That's who I am
I'll give it all I got
That is my plan
Will learn from what I lost
You know you can
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it
I'm gonna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say?
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it

It's no good at all
To see yourself
And not recognize your face
Out on my own
It's such a scary place, oooh!
The answers are all inside of me
All I gotta do is believe

I'm not gonna stop, not gonna stop 'til I get my shot
That's who I am, that is my plan
Will I end up on top?
You can, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet all you can
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on me

I'm gonna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say?
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it
(You can bet one me!)

And then I realized.

This is my fault.

Because no one knew, but I could read Zoey's mind, and I had known what she was planning at the mini golf course.

And I let it happen.

Because, unintentionally, I wanted to be loved without having to be careful.

I did lose myself to get what I wanted.

Because myself is with Bella. Not Zoey.

I need to get this sorted out.

I can't go back to Bella having second thoughts. I need to remind myself that Bella is my life, forever. Unconditionally.

Then, I heard high heels clacking upstairs. Zoey was coming to check on me. And I was in no fit condition to see her right now.

What if I lose myself again? I don't even know who I am anymore. I'm literally losing myself here.

All because I ignored her thoughts at the stupid golf course.

"Hey, Eddie, how are you doing?"

"Fine."

"You seem stressed."

"It doesn't matter,"

"Of course it does, baby,"

She's clouding up my head, I'm getting sucked in deeper!

Stay strong you moron! It's just three more weeks! I told myself.

But I think I'm falling for Zoey...

You're falling for your kidnapper? Jesus, get a grip, dude!

"Ugh!" I roared.

Zoey doubled back.

"What the - !?" She dropped a strong profanity, but I didn't hear her because I was holding my head, shouting reminders.

"You have my heart, forever, Bella! Nothing will tear us apart, Bella! You'll always be my Bella!" I was screaming as loud as I could, trying to regain myself. It wasn't working. They just seemed like letters in a book or flames in a bonfire to me. Nothing special, nothing out of the ordinary.

"Dude, get a grip!" Zoey screeched.

"Can't you see I'm trying!?" I roared, kicking the wall. And the wall... smashed open.

I stood there bewildered for a minute. How did I not know that I could smash out the back wall? I should've known; it wasn't covered with bars coated with venom.

"Edward. Stay." Zoey pleaded.

I knew if I didn't leave now, I would be lured more into her deadly web full of lies and confusion.

But I also knew that for some odd reason, I wanted to stay.

It was my choice now.

Stay, or go?

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Sorry it's short, but It's really early and I'm really tired so I want to go back to sleep. I'll post chapter 3 of Growing More later today, and maybe I'll do another chapter of this later, too.

Bai! x•x