checkmate ; xdinary heroes

25.

seungmin had been trying to calm hyeongjun down for the last half an hour or so. the boy had been sobbing in his arms since he and jiseok came home. 

understandably so, because seungmin himself was just holding back his tears this whole time, he just wanted to comfort hyeongjun. he didn't want to seem weak, at least in front of hyeongjun. no, he didn't consider crying as being a weak one. not at all. he just didn't want to cry. not when hyeongjun was in this state and needed him as a support. 

❝assholes!❞ hyeongjun's loud yell echoed in the silent room and it caused for all others to flinch at the sudden sound. hyeongjun looked horrible. with red puffy eyes and swollen face, tears rolling down his cheeks nonstop. he sobbed uncontrollably letting seungmin hug him tightly. ❝how dare they fucking do such thing!? they don't know who we are!❞ hyeongjun screamed in between his sobs burying his face in his hands right after. 

seungmin ran fingers through the younger's soft locks, trying to make him stop crying. he himself couldn't believe it either. it seemed unreal, it sounded unreal. did this mean they had to move on with their lives, continue living and do everything as they did before but without him? 

he was just starting to accept the fact that there would be the six of them, that jooyeon was really with them and becoming like them. and now he had to accept the fact that there would never be the six of them anymore? 

he thought back then before jooyeon's arrival five was the perfect number. they were completed as five. then jooyeon was added and he started learning that six was not bad as well. he started to like the idea of them being six. sure, it took him so much time but he did that. and now it was back to five. 

without gunil? 

it sounded so bad. that just wasn't right. seungmin couldn't believe he wouldn't be able to hear the elder nag at him for his stubbornness, ruffle his hair, go with him out and listen to his rambles, help him out and just be there in with him. 

❝is this really⸺❞ jiseok choked on his sobs, not being able to finish his sentence as he sat up properly after leaning against jooyeon for this whole time. wiping the tears that were streaming down his cheeks, ❝w-who will tell jungsu?❞ 

and only then it hit seungmin. jungsu still didn't know about it. he was in his room either sleeping or just resting which was really understandable, since he had lost a lot of blood. 

seungmin had no clue how he would accept this news. or would he even or not ⸺ since seungmin himself and all others too, still weren't able to realize that it was true.