It's been a few months since I've seen or speaken to Jule. The holiday break was now over and the international break was starting up. I had to go back to Germany. I had to go back and see her. I'm so not ready.
As I make my way to training, I'm freaking out. The drive felt like I was heading to my end. My hands shaking on the steering wheel. What would she say? Would she look at me? Would I be able to look at her?
I pull up and sit in my car for a few minutes, trying to calm my breathing. I can do this. I can do it.
I walk in, smiling at a few friends as they stand chatting. Lena and Lea were chatting and waved me over. I take a deep breath and make my way over to them.
"Hey y/n!" Lena says pulling me in for a hug.
"Hey guys. I missed you all so much." I say back to them, giving them both a hug.
"How have you been? How was your break?" Lea ask.
My jaw clenches slightly, but I keep a smile.
"It was great. I went to Ibiza with Lucy, Keira, Alexia, Jenni, Mapi, Ingred and Aitana. It was great. How about you guys?" I ask.
I won't be telling them about how for the first half of the break, I spent crying into Alexia and Mapi's shoulders, while they contemplated killing Jule.
"Yeah it was good. Seeing my family was great." Lea said, while Lena started talking about her time in Aussie.
Just as I start to get comfortable and feel more confident, the door opens and Jule walks in. My posture changes immediately and and look away from her. Lena looks at me with sympathy. I try to give her a weak smile back. They all must know what happened between me and Jule. So no wonder those two went quiet when she walked in.
I look back to see Jule staring at me, her jaw clenched. When she sees me looking, she looks away and makes her way over to some of the others. I feel a hand on my shoulder and I turn back around.
"We're sorry about what happened." Lena said.
"Yeah, we think what she did was shit and so wrong of her. I wasn't your fault we lost. She shouldn't have ruined your win because of her pain." Lea adds.
I smile weakly at them, tears brimming in my eyes.
"Thanks guys. I'm just worried to talk to her. Or how she will react to me being around her. And to be honest I'm not over the break up. I miss her."
They both nod, and bring me in for a hug.
It's been weeks, we only have a week before the World Cup and Jule and I still haven't spoken. Not once.
We all get off the bus as we arrive at our hotel in Aussie. I'm so fucking excited but nervous at the same time, because who am I going to be rooming with? I hope Lena, my best friend from this team.
We head into the hotel and all sit in the lobby, waiting to find out who will be rooming with who.
Lena takes my hand and smiles softly at me.
"Hopefully we room together." She says.
I laugh back and nod.
"Lena and Alex." I sigh sadly, as Lena squeezes my hand. "Lea and Kathy, y/n and Jule..."
Fuck off. No. This can't be happening. Lena looks over at me, worry swimming in her eyes. I just shake my head and sigh. Fuck my life.
Jule and I both get handed a key and grab our bags. We make our way up to our room in silence. She opens the door and leaves it open for me. I watch as she stands by the beds and looks over at me.
"Which one do you want?" She asks.
One is next to the window overlooking the city, while the other is closer to the door. I know we both want the window bed, but I am going to be selfish just like she was.
"I'll take the window." I say sternly, placing my luggage onto the bed.
She just nods and places her luggage on the other.
After unpacking and settling in, Jule speaks up.
"I'm going to head down to the common room."
I just nod my head and look down at my phone.
I hear a sigh and the door clicking shut. At that I quickly go onto FaceTime and decide to call Alexia, hoping she can help me with this rooming problem.
