She's beautiful. She's absolutely stunning. She's...way out of my league.
Training camp for England is not only hard and full on, but so fun and like a party. I love each and everyone of the girls here, and am so honoured to call them my teammates and family.
But Keira. Fuck. Keira is something else.
They way she up holds herself, talks and trains is the most beautiful thing to see. Almost as beautiful as her eyes and smile. Fuck. They make my knees weak.
But the problem is...I think she's with someone. Her and Lucy are very close and I see the media go on about them as a couple. And even I, their teammate, don't know for sure if their dating. They've never shown any signs of PDA around the team, but they are the best of friends and plus with all the edits of them, it gives me the impression that they're together.
And yes it makes me sad, but I'm her friend first and foremost, and this won't stop me from being her friend, even if I have to love her from a distance.
Right now the team had decided to go down to the common room to do some team bonding. It was around 10pm so I was feeling pretty tired, but Esme begged me to come with her, whining about how she can't go alone. So here I am, sitting next to Esme on a beanbag, with Keira sitting opposite me next to Lucy, as the whole team sits in a circle.
"Okay, okay. Who wants to go first?" Mary asks.
Daly raises an eyebrow at her, "it was your idea, so it's only fair for someone to ask you first. I'll do the honour." She says.
Before Mary could say anything else, Rachel is quick with it.
"Truth or dare?"
"Ughhh fine, truth."
"If you could be anything other than a football player, what would you be?"
Literally everyone knows the answer to this, so I don't know why Daly would ask her that.
"Influencer, duhhh." Mary laughs. "Okay, ummm. Lucy, truth or dare."
All eyes flicker to Lucy.
"Truth."
"Awwww come on, where's the dares at!" Mary whines. "Okay, if you were stuck on an island, which one of us would you wanna be stuck with?"
Lucy thinks for a second and I see her eyes flicker to Keira.
"Keira." She says, like it's simple.
A few awwws and ooos go around the room and Lucy laughs them off.
"It's not like that guys, and you all know it." Keira says quickly, her eyes averting towards me for a few second, causing me to quickly look away from her.
"Sure it's not. Anyways. Lucy your up now." Ella laughs.
"It's not. But anyways, ummm, Esme, truth or dare?" Lucy asks Esme, who shifts slightly next to me.
I turn to her as she answers the question.
"Dare."
"Yayyyy!!" Shouts Mary, happy someone picked dare.
I widen my eyes at Esme and she just shrugs at me.
"Ohhh. A brave one. Okay, what's the last text message on your phone, and who is it from?" Lucy asks.
Esme opens her phone, looks at me, then looks back at her phone.
No.
There's no way my text could be the last one she received. Stop! That's so embarrassing, everyone's gonna see it.
"Ummm. It's from y/n and it says. "Fuck she's so hot, the things I'd let her do to me." Esme reads out loud, trying not to laugh.
My face turns a bright red colour and my hands fly to my face as I groan.
My teammates burst out laughing, and Esme just throws her arms over my shoulder, giving me a side hug.
I look up to see the girls still laughing, but Millie seems to be thinking.
"But that makes no sense. Aren't you two together? So why would she say that to you?" Millie asks.
This causes both Esme and I to burst out laughing.
"What the fuck dude?" I laugh.
"Hell no." Esme says between laughs.
"But, everyone thinks you're together. Aren't you?" Daly chimes in.
My mouth falls open. Is that true? Does everyone really think that? Does Keira think that? I look over to her quickly to see her staring softly at me and Esme.
"I can't believe you all think that?" I laugh.
They all shrug, as if they all think the same thing.
"You guys know I'm straight right?" Esme says.
A few gasps go around the room.
"Wait really?"
"Seriously?"
"How did we not know?"
I laugh."Guys, just cause I'm gay, doesn't mean my best friend is too."
"Okay, but who was that about? Anyone here?" Lucy asks, crossing her arms.
"Nope. Na, ah, not getting that info from me." I say shaking my finger in-front of her face.
She shrugs and I see her give a look to Keira before turning back to the group. I look over at Keira to see her looking at me. When she sees me catch her staring at me, she blushes and turns away quickly.
"Okay, moving on." Esme says, clapping her hands.
The game continues for a few rounds before Lucy pipes up and asks me, "truth or dare y/n?"
"Truth." I say, as I really don't feel like doing any kind of shit dare they'll have for me.
Lucy just smirks at this and I see Keira give her a look before turning her attention back to me.
"Okay, if you had to sleep with one of the gay ones on the team who would it be?"
My face reddens and I sign. Fuck my life.
"But nearly all of you guys are taken, so that leaves like hardly anyone. It leaves like "Jess and Lottie." (Idk if their actually gay or not, just pretend). And I don't want to make them feel awkward." I say running a hand over my face.
Lucy looks at me confused.
"What do you mean? There is more of us. Keira is single, I'm single." She says winking at me when she brings up herself.
I laugh at her cockiness, including some of the others. Keira gives her a smack on the back of her head.
"No? Aren't you and Keira together? I swear you guys are together."
At my statement Lucy gags and earns another slap from Keira.
"She wishes." Lucy laughs.
Many join in and laugh, including me. But Keira just looks at me, and her face is blank. I can't see what emotion she's feeling.
"Okay well, not you. You're too cocky for me to deal with. Not Lottie she's like a sister and not Jess because we all know what or shall I say who Jess wants. So Keira. I'd sleep with Keira." I say shrugging.
At this Keira's face reddens and she looks away from me, turning to Lucy, while Lucy gives her a cheesy grin. As if she knows something.
The game continues and the tension between Keira and me is growing. I don't know if it's sexual or if she also feels something for me, or if it's all in my head. But she's staring at me constantly and then blushing when I catch her looking.
It's getting late, so the girls decide to head back to their rooms for some sleep before training tomorrow. Esme starts to walk off alone, looking like she's about to pass out from tiredness. I tried to help her but she just said, "no, it's all good. Don't worry about me." As she speedwalks to our room.
I sigh and shrug at some of the girls and I begin to say my goodbyes and walk back to my shared room. Noticing the way Lucy seemed to be trying to tell Keira something with her eyes.
Just as I was walking down the hall, I feel a hand on my shoulder. I turn around to see Keira looking really nervous.
"Can I speak to you, please?" She asks.
I smile softly, having her this close is amazing. She's so beautiful.
"Sure."
She leads me over to a corner, a area a little quieter and out of peoples view.
"What's up? Are you okay?" I ask Keira.
She nods and looks down gulping.
"Yes I'm fine. I, umm, wanted to ask you something about tonight." She mumbles.
I nod, urging her to continue.
"I-. Did you mean what you said about sleeping with me?"
At this my heart drops to my stomach. She was uncomfortable. She doesn't want me to think of her like that. She doesn't like me.
"Ummm, yeah. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. I don't want to make you uncomfortable."
She quickly shakes her head as her eyes meet mine.
"It, it doesn't make me uncomfortable at all. I just can't believe you would choose me." She says back.
At this I scrunch my brows. Why would she think that?
"I don't understand. Is it because you don't believe I think your pretty, or because we are friends, or teammates?" I ask.
She shakes her head again.
"You think I'm pretty?" She asks, more like a whisper.
I smile softly.
"Of course. Your stunning Keira, and I hope you know that."
At that she smiles and becomes a little more confident.
"Thank you." She says blushing.
I smile and my heart speeds up. She's so I fucking beautiful and I know I shouldn't risk our friendship but I have to ask her. I just have to do it.
"Keira..." I say softly.
She looks at me in the eyes. Those beautiful eyes.
"Yes?"
"I-, I like you. Like I really like you. I hope that's okay." I admit.
At this she smiles widely and her face turns bright red.
"I like you too. Very much."
I laugh of happiness and I can't tell my brushing like crazy.
"Can I take you out sometime?" Keira ask.
I nod enthusiastically.
"I'd like that very much."
At that she pulls me in for a hug, kissing my cheek softly, before we say goodnight and I basically skip back to my room, squealing when I walk through the door.
Fuck, what I night.
