The Mentally Brave

Chapter 23

"What is going on?" I walk into the room after Harry.

He is looking out the window, ignoring my question.

"Harry" I pace up to him and touch his arm "What did Louis say?"

"Louis had a vision, so we need to go in today" He is still not looking at me.

"We? Who is going?"

"Not you. Ed, Niall and I, you will stay here with Liam" He says in his final tone

"You must be joking, if you think I will be staying here"

"Lizzie, please don't fight me on this" He finally looks at my face. I have to take another look at him to be sure I am seeing correctly. His eyes are red. Harry is crying.

"Harry? What happened baby?" I take his face in my hands pulling him to me. His arms wrap around me in a tight grip.

"I'm sorry" He cries

"Sorry for what love? You didn't do anything" I stroke his curls, as he squeezes me to him.

"This is my entire fault, I was too stubborn to turn away and leave it alone" He sobs.

"Harry look at me" I lean back and touch his face once more with my palms "This is not your fault. The only people who are in fault are the Company x for thinking they can use people like us as lab rats" I wipe at his cheeks. It brakes my heart to see him like this. Harry who is so strong, who leads us, who took a bullet for me, Who didn't mind taking a beating for one of us, who cares so much about each and every one of the gang as if he or her are his real family and blaming himself for what happened to Perrie.

"I never meant for any of this to happen" His voice is calmer now, but still hoarse.

"Harry this has nothing to do with you" I say my heart not holding up with the amount of pain seeping from Harry.

"It is all to do with me, you don't understand" He holds my shoulders looking deep into my eyes. "It is all me, I was trying to tell you, I'm tainted" His hold on my shoulder grows stronger, he is hurting me.

"Harry let me go, you're hurting me" I try pushing him back. He is blocking my powers, making it impossible to break free of his hold. I have never seen him this way.

"I need to make this right" He tells me

"Make it right, let go of me Styles" I tell him, my hands griping his arms. But it is as if I am not there. He is deep in his own thoughts, not letting me break through to him. I make the chair by the table move and smash in to him, making us both fall to the earth.

"Fuck.. Liz.. Lizzie I'm sorry" Harry snaps out of what was going on in his head rolling off of me, pulling me up back to my feet.

"It's ok, listen you need a shower and rest before you go tonight"

"Yes, yes I do" He is acting weird not really sure what he should do. This is not the Harry I know. I help him undress and put on hot water to fill the small bath. Once it is full of warm soapy water he gets in, sitting down, resting his head on knees.

He is over stressed, this is what it is. I get some water and pour it over his head, watching his curls turn wet. How did I miss this? I am good with signs, so how did I miss the stress in his eyes, the toll this whole thing took on him. He can't go in to the compound like this. That is when I make up my mind.

"Where are you going? I haven't seen you the whole day" Taylor says as I enter our room.