I told him, he wasn't his so I wouldn't ruin his life

Chapter 5

                                                                            Six months later

Gabe called about twice a week for the first month. Carter loved hearing his voice, and once a week he got to see him via web cam. I was so excited that my baby was able to see his dad, but then the calls started to dwindle and eventually stopped. I hated the fact that the tour was separating us, I knew that it had to be the stress and all that was causing him not to call. I couldn’t think that it was because he didn’t actually want to talk to us.

It was finally time for him to come back and I was nervous. What if he had changed and he no longer wanted Carter anymore? What was I to do then? Sighing I picked up Carter and got him ready for the party at AJ’s house. They were having a big get together so we could all be in one place. I wanted to get this day over with. I didn’t know exactly how Carter would react. I mean he’s been without his dad for six months, he probably thinks he abandoned him.

Finally after getting all the normal stuff done we arrived at the party and this time on time. AJ smiled softly at me and then pulled me aside before I could walk in.

“What’s wrong A?” I asked, her face contorted into a sour look.

“Gabe brought something back with him from tour.”

“Uh what?” At first I thought it was a toy for Carter or something but from her face I guessed it was something much much worse.

“A new girlfriend.”

My heart literally I swear stopped beating for a second. How could he possibly tell me he wanted to be with me before he left and then come back with a girl? Who does that? I used the back of my hand to swipe away and unruly tear that should never have escaped. I sighed and took a big breath.

“Well I hope he knows that there’s no way in hell my son will be anywhere near someone I don’t know. Therefore all his visits with him will be at my house.” I said in an almost robotic voice. I was not letting some girl I didn’t even know come in and try and be something to my son. There was no way.

I followed a smirking AJ into the house and placed a smile on my lips. I immediately searched the room for Gabe and his new girl friend. They were sitting on the couch with her in his lap. I wanted to yank her off of him. She looked to be about 18 or so. I felt bad for the girl, her wasting her new life on Gabe. I mean don’t get me wrong I’m young but once you become a mother it’s like you have to mature you have no choice. I tried my best not to glare at them as I walked in.

“Hey everyone!” I called out and picked Carter up making sure he couldn’t run off to Gabe. At first he wiggled in my arms but I kissed his head gently and told him that he needed to be with mommy and he stopped.

I got a chorus of “hellos” except from one part of the room, the part Gabe was. I made my way around the room to talk to everyone keeping Carter with me at all times. After doing all the hellos I finally sat down with Carter on one of the couches. I could feel eyes on me but I forced myself not to look over. A  few minutes later I heard feet moving and someone standing in front of me. I glanced over to see Gabe and his new girl.

“Hey Evan.” He sighed and stared at my forehead purposely avoiding my eyes.

“Gabriel.”

“This is my girlfriend Maddy, this is Evan.” Neither of us offered to shake each others hand I just nodded at her and tried to smile.

“This is Gabe’s son Carter.” I smiled down at my baby who was now in my lap. He looked up at the woman and then buried his little head back into my neck.

“It’s okay baby.” I murmured to him and then laughed. “He’s shy.”

I looked up from Carter to Gabe; I couldn’t read the look in his eyes. It was either anger or sadness. Either way I didn’t care I couldn’t let myself.

“Hey Evan I was wondering if I could talk to you alone?” He asked with an almost pleading face. I shrugged.

“Okay.” Taking Carter over to AJ I placed him on her lap and then followed Gabe outside.

“Do you need something Gabriel?” Making my voice as emotionless as possible I looked up at him.

“I’m sorry for what happed on tour. I didn’t mean to stop calling. I just met Maddy and things got busy and it just..”

“You forgot about your son. Don’t worry after a month or two he forgot about you too.”

Pain etched across his face and I almost took back what I said.

“I know… look so I’m off for awhile and I’ll have my own place…”

“No he isn’t staying with you Gabe.”  I interrupted him. I couldn’t trust him with my son after what he did. “Especially with a new person, I don’t know anything about her. I don’t know anything about your life Gabe. So therefore I don’t trust him there. I’m sorry. Maybe one day.” I told him then turned to leave.

But I didn’t get very far because he grabbed my wrist and turned me around.

“Stop being such a selfish bitch let me see my son.” With that I used my other hand to slap him and he let go of my wrist and grabbed his cheek.

“He is my son. Not yours, and for your information. I didn’t put you on the birth certificate. Therefore he is my son. Not ours.” I glared at him then stormed inside. I told AJ that I had to leave and there was no possible way I could stay no matter what.

I grabbed all of my stuff including Carter and then walked out leaving a confused group behind me and a pissed off Gabe on the porch.