I told him, he wasn't his so I wouldn't ruin his life

Chapter 3

We walked slowly inside the house doing our best to not really look at each other for very long. I know he was upset at me for lying to him for all this time, but I could tell that he was excited to see Carter.

“Carter baby, come here!” I called out, smiling as I heard little feet pattering along till he ran straight for my leg.

“Carter, I want you to meet someone.” Turning him to look at Gabe I sighed.

“This is Gabe, your dad. Gabe this is Carter Gabriel Macen.” I saw something flash in his eyes as I said that Carter’s middle name was his. I guess I did it just to show that I did want him to be some part of Carter’s life.

“Dada?” My baby asked cuddling closer to me.

I nodded and smiled at him. “Yeah bud, dada. You should go say hi.” I nudged him towards Gabe and watched as he waddled over to him with his big blue eyes staring up at Gabe.

“Hey bud, I’m your dad.” I swear I never saw someone smile as brightly as Gabe did when Carter ran up and hugged him. I just wanted to take a picture of it. Of course though now he was going to want to see Carter and be a part of his life, but how could he do that when he’s on tour? I probably shouldn’t think about this for now… maybe everything will work out?

Some part of me wanted him to run back to me and hide from his father but I knew that he wouldn’t. My son was very trusting, which could be a good or a bad thing. If someone said they were an important person in his life if they really are or not he would believe them with his whole heart.

I watched as Gabe picked my baby up and hugged him. I swear I saw tears hiding in his eyes but I couldn’t be certain. I never saw him show emotion before, minus the screaming match of course. Then there is the point that I never really knew him other than the brother of my best friend’s boyfriend. A.J walked up next to me and smiled.

“This is a good thing Ev, trust me. He’s gonna be a great father.”

I shook my head. “Until he leaves and forgets about him. He’s going to break Carter’s heart and there’s nothing I can do about it.”

Gabe looked over at me and smiled. “When’s his birthday? It’s coming up right?”

I nodded at him and sighed. “Next week.  May 2 actually.”

He smiled and looked down at Carter. “Hey bud do you wanna go play, Mommy brought toys for you right?”

Carter looked at me with a huge smile on his face and I shook my head. “Carter you have toys upstairs, remember? Why don’t you go play with Aunt A.J and Uncle Aidyn I have to talk to Daddy for a minute okay?” Grudgingly he nodded, Gabe put him down and he wrapped his little hand around Aidyn’s pointer finger. They took him upstairs and I sighed.

“So I’m guessing you’re gonna want to see him now huh?”

“Of course.” He said as if any other notion was ridiculous.

“When do you leave again?”

This question had him silent for a few minutes. “Two weeks.”

I scoffed. Of course he wasn’t going to be here for awhile and he’s going to leave my son out to dry. This is exactly why I didn’t want to tell him.

“Well that’s great. Look you can spend some time with him but not too much. It’ll confuse him, one day you’re here and the next you’re gone for four months. I’m not going to do that to him do you understand?”

Realization donned on his face and he nodded gravely. “Yeah okay, I tour all summer long. I won’t be done until Christmas and such.”

I shook my head and smiled sarcastically. “Well then you better get him a hell of a Christmas present. I work at a publisher so right now he’s in day care except for Wednesday I have off you can come over and see him then if you want?”

He nodded his head eagerly. “Thanks Evan. You don’t know how much I want to get to know him and you.” I was shocked by what he added at the end. Get to know me? Why would he want to do that? Other then I was the mother of his son and we would have to get along in order to give our son a good life. This was going to be interesting. All I could think of was Carter running down stairs asking for Daddy and I have to tell him sorry baby your father isn’t her and won’t be for six months or so. That’s going to go over well. Can’t you tell how excited I am?

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