Forgotten Memories {GiyuShino}

Chapter 8

Shinobu Kocho's POV

I skipped lunch for the first time as far as I remember, just wasn't hungry or wasn't ready to show myself to others, they only know me as Kanae Kocho's Little Sister. I wonder how my sister was, did she like me? Did they simply see me as someone related to her? Don't they want me for who I am? Insect Hashira, Shinobu Kocho? No, they don't... I'm weird, aren't I?

Knock knock

"Kocho, it's me, Tomioka" What if he was also viewing me as Kanae's sister? God... I should be sad about Rengoku's death... I am but my mind is driving me nuts...

"Kocho you haven't had your lunch yet! This is bad for your health"

"Don't worry Tomioka San~ Kanae's little sister won't die that quickly" Yeah I was almost killed by a demon...

"Kanae's sister won't but you will, you are that one little insect flying around looking for trouble" huh? Was he insulting me? Shouldn't I feel mad? But why don't I?

"Aren't we the same person?" I softly giggled

"Shouldn't I be asking you that?"

"Open the door, I guess I need someone to talk to" he opened the door surprised, it wasn't locked in the first place

"Why are you sitting on the floor?"

"The floor feels comfy today!" he looked at me as if he was looking at an idiot. He came up to me, he bent down...

"T-Tomioka San!!" he picked me up

"Light as a feather" he threw me to the bed and sat next to me. "Now, what happened to my little butterfly?"

Oh. My. God.

Did he just give me a nickname??? Did he always call me that??

I turned to him, suddenly I forgot the answer to his question... Oh yes...

"I have two things bothering me, one, Rengoku's death. Two, do you only love me as Kanae Kocho's sister?" he looked at me blankly, and he gave me a suspicious look, is something wrong?

"I like- no... I love you as Kanae Kocho's sister and as Shinobu Kocho" Love? Wait!

"I did not mean it that way!!" I pushed a pillow at him, and he quickly sipped and fell on the bed with me on top of him...

"Guess you did not mean that, but did you mean this?" I did not mean that... But what about-

"Tomioka San!!!" I quickly let go of him but he pulled me back, not on top of him but beside him

"What's wrong Kocho?"

"Call me Shinobu from now on"

"How about something else? Maybe like-"

"Then I am going to call you Mr Loner"

"Rude, but if that's what you like" When I'm with him, time flies quickly... I forget the situation I'm in, I forget my worries... I was feeling insecure about myself but he made me forget all about it

"So, what happened?"

"It's just that... I feel like everyone knows me and likes me as Kanae's sister but not for who I am" I let out a sigh and faced San

"I see, Kanae was a very nice person, everyone loved her, but as she disappeared, and you were here, everyone who knew her made sure that you would be safe. And then one day you come back home all bloodied and unconscious, you lost your memories and everyone still blames themselves for it" Other than the blaming part, I knew what was happening.

"It wasn't just 'Kanae' about you, you were left alone with the other five, and you had to take care of them. And you did it, splendidly, you kept a smile on your face even though you were having a hard time. Muichiro even saw you as a mother figure, not as Kanae's sister. They love you for who you are. But most importantly, I love you for who you are" The last few words gave me butterflies in my stomach... "Look who is blushing"

"Shut up" We just laid there in my bed not talking or moving, we were comfortable with each other's presence.

Soon I felt my hunger kick in, I wanted food! I looked up at Tomioka San was drifting off to sleep, he looked so cute... Would he mind me taking a quick kiss from him? No... What if it is his first kiss?! He would be mad!! But we won't even know that I stole one... Right? No! Shinobu Kocho, you must prevent yourself from doing weird stuff

I forced myself out of bed, and now, Tomioka San was completely asleep. I went out of my room and then to the recovery room to look for the boys. They were all sleeping... I sat down next to Inosuke and pet his forehead making sure that I won't wake him up... I don't have many memories with them but they feel like my own kids... Even though I don't have any

"Rengoku..." I turned to see Inosuke talking in his sleep. Looks like he was dreaming of him...

"Shhh.. It's alright" he had tears. I have been with Inosuke for long enough to know his personality, even though he is grumpy and acts like he doesn't care, he does... My hunger started to kick in again so I went to the kitchen to have some leftovers

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Half an Hour Later Or So

After lunch, I decided to stay with Tanjiro and the others, I saw Nezuko's box shaking as it opened

"Hello Nezuko, did you sleep well?" she sat next to me and leaned her head on my chest, got me wondering... How old is Nezuko? "I am guessing that you also fought Lower 1, you did a great job" Nezuko looked at me, her eyes were so familiar... But hers was pink and the one I knew was red...

I saw Tanjiro whimpering and letting out a sob

"I'm sorry... I-I'm sorry that I left you guys... Behind" Nezuko took my hand and brought me to Tanjiri, she pointed at him with a sad face, guess she wanted me to comfort him

I remember Tanjiro telling me about his family and how Nezuko turned into a demon, maybe he was dreaming about his family, or maybe Rengoku?

"They don't blame you Tanjiro, they never will..." he started crying a bit harder, it was a good sign, it's good to let out your emotions...

"What's going on here?" I turned around to see a Hashira, Tengen Uzui. The Sound Hashira?

Author's Note

I did not post yesterday cuz why not~?

Well, I am sorry-
My exams started and I ain't be able to write any for a few days, these are just a few chapters from my draft, I'll post every 1-2 days

But thank you for keeping up with my grammatical mistakes and stupidity-
And do vote and comment if you enjoyed it!