Eren Pierce Salazar

Kabanata 26

''You want to see her? '' Sky was gentle to me.

But still, I don't want to see her...

I shook my head. ''N---No...'' I was... I can't move my legs anymore, and my voice has become so low. The doctor said I was having distress about my legs; noong tumatakbo daw ako, may nasagi akong metal na tumusok sa legs ko, but I didn't feel it or notice it, kasi sa mga oras na iyon gusto ko lang manganak. Gusto ko pang mabuhay. Nalaman ko lang nang pag gising ko may benda na sa legs ko at sobrang sakit nito, but thanks to anesthesia, it doesn't hurt too much.

I'm now sitting in a wheelchair, and Sky is the one who is taking care of me because he's the only one that is allowed, the only person I want to see...

''Maria... Don't you want to see Erin? She's cute! She looks li---''

''She looks like her father. I don't want her. She's not my child.'' I don't want to see her, kasi kapag nakikita ko siya lahat ng sakit bumabalik.

The silence between us became so loud not until someone talked.

''Maria...'' I looked at him, and my heart pounded angrily.

''Why are you here?!'' My voice is still low, but I know he can sense my feelings, and that's hatred.

Pagod na pagod na akong umintindi sa kanilang lahat. Ubos na ubos na ako. Wala man lang natira sa akin...

I see something flickering in his eyes, but he still manages to smile. He came closer to me and kneeled in front of me. Sky went out.

Itinagilid ko ang aking ulo at tumingin sa labas.

''I bought you cupcakes... I bought everything you want... Please, look at me'' he was begging, sobbing, and hurting, but I don't care... I just want everyone gone.

''Just go out,'' I said coldly, but he held my hand. Mas umapaw ang nararamdaman kong galit na ilang saglit nalang ay magwawala na ako sa galit.

''I won't leave you... Not again... Diba I promise you---''

''Just forget about it. I have already given birth to your child. Leave me alone''

He cupped my cheeks and forced me to face him, and now I am facing him. His tears are running down his cheeks, but I don't feel any pain. Dati kapag nakikita ko siyang umiiyak, masakit pero ngayon... Wala na. Walang wala na ako.

''Don't say that... It's our child.'' He smiled, like every pain in his eyes vanishes when he talks about his child. I don't like it. ''Thank you for naming her after my name. I love you so much, please...'' he sobbed again, but I didn't move.

I didn't move until he got tired. He talked to me, but I didn't show him any mercy until he gave up talking to me and clung to me. He just went out. He said he'd be back, but I wouldn't let him. I'll leave this hospital today. I already told Sky about it, and he didn't like it, but I begged. I just don't like to see everyone. Sky talked to Tito Ino; he told him my plan and Tito Ino agreed. Before agreeing, he asked me if I wanted to bring that child with me, but I didn't want to...

''Are you going to do this?'' Sky asked me, but I was just silent, looking outside the car's window.

Silence and then words again.

''She's so healthy, Maria. She looks like my cousin, but she inherited your smile. She was very bobbly. She giggled every time we let her hear your voice from the voice record you left on your phone''

One month inside the hospital, I felt like I was free from illness the moment I stepped outside of that hospital.

''Eren always tells her how her mama sacrificed for her. How her Mama loves her so much, how her Mama sang You are my sunshine when she was still in her Mama's womb''