Eren Pierce Salazar

Kabanata 14

''Ano ba Eren! Umalis ka nga sa harap ko!'' sigaw ko dahil talagang naiinis ako sa pagmumukha niya. Bwiset na lalaki to!

He is still trying to reach my belly pero agad kong hinawi ang kamay niya.

''Wag nga kasi at madumi ka!'' Hindi ba siya nakaka intindi?!

''Pahawak lang! Tignan mo kung anong ikinabait ng pangalan mo ganyan din kasama ugali mo!'' He was like a child.

I am now in my seventh-preggy month and I just don't like seeing Eren.

''Ayaw ko nga kasi! Buy me mangga na maasim, dalawang kilo''

He raised a brow at me and my eyes sharpened. At talagang matapang na siya?

''Just let me touch my child, Maria... Please...'' He was now begging

I looked at him.

Eren is just the epitome of handsomeness. He's really handsome... For how many months, he has been trying to settle things with me; He always apologizes for what happened in the past but I am still a little bit angry because I still don't know the reason why he did that to me.

''Eren... Ayaw ko'' I was calm and I am also begging him. Ayaw ko talagang hinawakan niya ako.

He sighed and stood up from kneeling. ''Maria, you already ate a lot of mangoes, hindi makakabuti 'yan sayo''

Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. ''Akala ko ba Engineer ka, ba't naging Doctor ka?'' sarkastiko kong tanong.

His face became so strict, I almost felt scared of it but I know his weakness. I looked at him coldly and that's it.

''Fine,'' he sighed and left.

I was watching him until he vanished from my sight.

Eren... He changed. We changed... I don't know, but I feel at ease at this moment in my life. I know I am letting my wall down, but I can see how determined he is for my forgiveness. Those times na halos patayin namin ang isa't-isa just not to see each other. Iyong panahon na ayaw na ayaw kong nakikita siya. Ayaw ko siyang makausap. It vanished, which makes it feel like just a glimpse of yesterday. I hate him to the core, but the way he treats me just because I have his child is everything to me. I am very thankful at alam kong utang na loob ko 'yon. Sana kapag iniwan ko sa kanya ang anak namin ay maipakilala niya ako bilang ina nito.

I owe you a lot, Eren... Thank you for making me feel what forgiveness feels like...

''What if---''

''Isang what if mo pang lalaki ka, tong kutsilyong hawak ko diretso sa bibig mo'' gigil kong sabi.

I heard him clearing his throat. ''What if nga lang eh''

I just raised one of my eyebrows. Kanina pa kasi what if ng what if. Hindi na ako makapag focus sa pinapanuod ko dahil sa kanya. We are watching some movie on netflix.

I chuckled at the scene na hinahabol ng Papa ang anak niyang babae. Imagine Eren with our child running... It will be wholesome, but I know, I'll never see them like that... not with me.

''Maria...''

''Hmm?''

''Anong ipapangalan natin? '' he asked.

Napa haplos ako sa tiyan ko habang nakatingin sa TV. This is making me so emotional, and I cannot help myself from slowly crying.

I---I grew up in a very painful way. I grew up being physically abused by my father. My brother's painful words. I've been through a lot... A lot... But, this baby, my child, is erasing that pain and agony from me. It feels so warm.