Its Just ME

chapter 26

Lorenzo's POV.
HER. I didn't want to talk about her, she was my only best friend,my heroine,I love her so fucking much, my mum.
I promise to protect her, she trusted me, she believed me, she loved me so much,I miss her every fucking seconds of my life, I need her, she was the only one that understand me cause she's my mum.
But I was weak, I couldn't do a fucking thing, I lost her,I was never able to say goodbye to her, she screamed, yelled my name for help,b.... but....
I didn't come,I didn't help her,I was late,
If I would have come earlier she would have still be with me,
It's me, it was all my fault,
She always call me her fucking hero but I was a fucking coward.
I fucking hated myself for it,
This is pain.... it's really Really painful.
I wish I had come earlier,I wish..... I just wished. ..
I'm gonna live with this guilt until I crush those imbeciles with my hands!
She was a fucking sweet woman, she loved everyone, she cares for every fucking person, she was selfless, but they still killed her,
I always cry anytime I recall the sound of the bullet being shot right straight in heart three times,
Strong people do breakdown sometimes too, I'm strong, I'm the boss but I still cry silently, when I remember my mother.
I breakdown alone cause I wouldn't want my siblings seeing their strong brother that always tells them that 'crying can't change what has already happened,so stop it' breaks down.
I swear to God I won't fucking rest till I find those fucking fuckers,
They'll beg for death but to no avail,
I will make them bleed,I'll make them scream, I'll make them lose it,I'll destroy them, I'll rip them apart, I'll burn them, they'll die a very painful death, I'll make them experience hell before they go to the fucking HELL!
I love her. I love her.
I miss her patting my head,
Brushing my hair,
I miss her calling me ENZO
Her voice,her smile,her pecks,
I miss her.
Losing a mother can be one of the most difficult experience anyone could ever go through,

I sat on my chair in my office, my head buried in my hands,
When she asked the question,I got seriously angered up.
And I let my anger overcome me, talking rude to her,
Hearing her crying in the bathroom made my heart twitched and I don't like it,
And I left angrily,.
Then I realized I left my phone in the room,I went in and saw her curled up in the sheets,I bet she's not sleeping,
Is she still fucking crying?
I picked up my phone that was ringing,

"Didn't you see my text?"

"I told you it was one fucking night

But I'm still horny and having dreams about you, fucking me so hard"

"I'm coming"

I said and I hang up, taking my keys I left glancing at her once again,I couldn't see her face cause she fucking tucked her hair in the pillow.

Laura will definitely have it from me, she's just a fucking whore and a pornstar,it was one fucking nightstand.
I was driving and just then her call came in again, but it was video call, and I picked it, and there she was touching herself with a fucking dildo, screaming my name and she released.

"Look I swear to fucking god, If you don't stop this shit you'll be dead in a minute."
I said feeling disgusted by the sight,if it would have been HER I'll be aroused now,

"You and your threats,duhhhh, you know I won't give up, you can't kill from there, can you?"
She said biting her lips.

"Oh yeah,I can and I will,"
I said and suddenly I saw one of my men came inside her and shot dead and I hang up by sight of her lifeless body on the bed.
I warned you, Laura.

I smirk and drive myself to one of my club,
The strippers came my way but I stopped them before they could even touch me,
I'm really trying to be loyal here, like fuck,
Fuck her for being tempting and lovely.
And I drink my shit out, but not getting drunk because of her, and it won't be good, it was getting dark and I don't want to deal with her panics again,
I get my car and drove home.

And I come back home, entering inside I saw her sitting on a chair in the living room, eating popcorn and watching the Kardashians TV show. And she has my shirt on,I fucking love her in my shirt,

"Can we talk?"
I asked sitting close to her and she didn't reply instead she kept her focus on the TV and that was really riling me up.
I pull off my shirt and go close to her, moving the popcorn aside and I off the TV, then she wanted move but I trapped her, pinning her both hands above her head with just my one hand, and she close her eyes, giving me a view of her dark full lashes. Perfect.

"The FUCK is your problem?"I asked trying to keep my voice calm, like she's fucking me up, physically, mentally and sexually,all I fucking think about is her, and here she is angry at for no F reason.

"You", she finally open those fucking pretty eyes staring, angrily, disappointed, and tears rolling down.
"You are such a shameless freaking asshole,why did you have to marry me and keep me locked up here just for you to go out and fuck some cheap sluts,
Y... you said you don't need anyone.
You-"

"So you checked my phone, that's invasion of privacy,"I growled at her

"Yeah I did, you freaking cheat,I hate you,I-"

"Just shut. The. Fuck. Up."
I said in an annoyed tone, tightening my grip on her hands,I swear I'm really trying hard no to do any bad shits right now and she's not helping,I hate it when she said that to me,

"Why?
Why will I shut up, you ruined my life, you married me and then you keep up with your nasty polygamous life, You -"

"I did not fuck anyone"
I said closing my cause I have just one nerve left and she's getting on it,

"Bloody freaking liar,I-"

"Yell at me again and I'll give you a real reason to scream,"I threatened

"Tuhhhh, you can't just keep me here, I'm also allowed to go and sleep with another man."

"What the..."

And that fucking does it,it hits.
Then I hold her down and relax my weight on her and crash my lips in hers, kissing her harshly and dominantly and biting her tongue and lower lips, sucking the blood, suppressing her moan that was threatening to come out, and I kept sucking hard, exploring her mouth for almost a long fucking time, and I finally left her after what took a few minutes and I left her gasping for air and trying to catch her breath,
And I grab her throat with my other hand,

"You think you can just run that pretty mouth of yours whenever you want,huh?"
I said, tightening my grip on her throat,
Her lips was already red, and swollen making it more plumpy,

"E... enzo you are h.. hurting me."
She managed to choke out,

"So you didn't hurt me when you accused of that fucking cheap act?"
I said and she winced her face due to the pain on her throat and my grip on her hands,
"Just... fuck you for making it so hard for me to hurt you,
Fuck you for making me feel feel guilty when I want to hurt you,
FUCK your tears, FUCK you."
I said then I released her and I got up from her and I sat down running my hands on hair,
And she also sat down rubbing her wrist and neck that red and sore.

"She means nothing to me, she was just a distraction and It was just one fucking nightstand and that was before you drag your ass in my life, and I didn't fucking go to her place,
I'm not really used to this stuff and I'm trying hard to be fucking loyal to my wife, but your stubborn ass won't let that.
And fuck you for making explain myself to you just for you to get that in your fucking head,
Just. FUCK. You."
I growled frustrated at how she's making me feel,

"I-"
But I cut her off, cause I don't want to hear her fucking voice.

"Don't fucking say anything,"
I said, giving her a dead stare into her fucking eyes,my hands shaking, my eyes full of rage, like how dare she said that?
Then out of frustration I hit the chair close to her and she close her eyes, thinking I'll hit her, that's the fucking last shit I'd do.
I stood up angrily, cause if I stay any longer I'll just mess it all up,
And head straight to my gym,