Its Just ME

chapter 29

Lorenzo's POV.
I smuggle my nose on her hair, inhaling her scent that make me drunk.
Her soft, naked body pressed on mine,
My arm tightened around her waist, and I pull her closer to me.
I gave her a kiss on her head, and again,on her head.
And she didn't move, she just kept tracing my tattoos on my bare chest with her little hands, and just her touch was already turning me on.
This girl has cast a fucking spell on me, like damnnn...
Cause right now, I'm fucking addicted to her, her charming hazel eyes, her beautiful smile that brightens my fucking day, my fucked up life, her touch that makes my monster loose immediately, I never want her to stop touching me. She's mine.
I love her. I love her so much. I'm addicted to her, I'm obsessed with her,I'm fucking consumed by her.
She really got me.
Mine. Just mine.
She haven't known about my shitty lifestyle,my job, mafia, she didn't know what I do, illegal stuffs,I kill without a second thought, my dark messed up life that'll will stain her innocent world.
Her world is different from mine.
She's sweet, I'm not.
She's light, I'm consumed in darkness.
She's innocent but I'm dirty, dangerous.
I've touched her, with my sinful hands that has killed many.
I've fucked her, I've gone into her, I've explore her and I'll continue to do so,
The innocence is gone....
I'm a monster, I'm danger, darkness and she has fallen for Enzo not a mafia leader.
What will she do if she finds out?
Will she leave me?
Hate me?
No!
If she never finds out then nothing will go wrong.

"Good morning,bell."
I said placing another kiss on her head and tracing her bare back with with my hands and goosebumps appears immediately.
I love how she reacts to my touch,so fucking responsive, only to me. No else!

"Good morning."
And I heard that angelic soothing voice, still tracing my tattoos.

And she glance up at me, staring deeply inside my soul,

"What?"
I asked curiously, cause were full of mixture of confusion and doubt.

"You never said you love me."
She said in a soft voice making me chuckle and she just kept staring at me.

"I love your hair. I said brushing my hands on her long dark brown hair, just like mine. I love your eyes. I said placing gentle kisses on them. I love your nose,{kiss}. I love your lips {kiss} and she let out a soft moan.
I love your perfect boobs, and I place kisses on both of them, and moan.
I love your waist, I love your butts,I love every fucking thing about you.
I said and her cheeks already tints.
I fucking love you."

"I love you too, Enzo."
She said, biting my chest, with a big lovely smile displaying on those sexy lips,

"But I hate your tears, when you cry,I hate those nightmares,I hate those panic attacks, and I hate that you're keeping secrets from me."
I said in a low voice and she tried to break the contact but I gently grab her face,

"I want to know you,bell,"
I said keeping my voice so calm than ever.

"There's nothing to know, I'm just a stupid, miserable, fooli-"
And I cut her by giving her a quick spank on her ass.

"I said I want know you,I didn't say you should abuse yourself,"
I said and she gave me a small smile that's didn't reach her eyes.

"Ummm....
I'm the second born of a family of three, my baby is still in the hospital, and my mum is.."
She stops, sobbing on my chest, that sight fucking kill me,I want to take all her pain away,I want to make her happy.
And I pat on her head,

She's dead, and my big sister, also ran away cause she was scared of responsibility, she's a freaking coward, and I was left with my baby and now he'll also leave"

"No,I promise he'll be fine,"
I said with a soft concerned voice,i fucking hate when she's in this state,I could feel her pain,

"Why do people that I love always leave me?
Am I horrible? Or bad omen?
He always call me that,bad omen,a mistake,
Maybe it's..... true"
And she breakdown again,her voice cracking, crying uncontrollably, she curled herself around me,her tears already shattered on my chest,
What the fuck,
Who call her those?
I tightened a fist on the bedsheets, already fantasizing on how I'll destroy the fucker.
I let her calm down after the crying an shuddering

"Who's that bastard?"
I asked her still trying my best to keep my voice calm but my tone came out different,

"My d.... dad,"
She said she and I was so fucking shocked to the core, like what the fuck?

"Yes,my dad.
He never loved us, he's always gambling and drinking , and whenever he lost we'll pay for him,he hates us much.
And my mum,he abuse her, he bullied her,he hit her,he cheated on her many times, and he....he finally killed her, that monster killed her,he stabbed her many times In the stomach because she said she was.....[sobbing] pregnant and he don't want to have more kids.
I couldn't do anything, she always loved me,still I didn't stop him, she said we shouldn't come out of our room and I listened to her, I shouldn't have,
I'm a very very bad child, when we came out all we could see was red,red,red, blood everywhere,my mum swimming in it,he killed them.
I remember my mum told us that the doctor said it's going to be a little princess, but he.....he-"

"Shhhh, it was never your fault,bell. Don't cry, please!"
I said kissing her forehead and tears threatened to come out but I held it back, cause she's just like me,I couldn't save my mum also.

"Where's he?"
I asked, taking a deep breath cause all I want to do now was destroy, punish, torment,burn, kill the fucker.

"Life imprisonment."
She said in a low voice.

"Life WHAT?"
I asked,in a shocked and

"He's supposed to be in the fucking HELL."
I said with tight jaw, clenching my teeth.

"He'll rot in jail, he's a messed up asshole,he killed my mother, he's a murderer,an addict,a freaking criminal.
And I don't want to be with another criminal, that's why I asked you about your job and thank goodness is not illegal, I love you for your honesty."
She kissing my chest,
Honest?
I'm not, baby!
I'm also a criminal.

"What's your sister's name?"
I asked and she raise her head, looking at me.

"I can't remember cause she's dead to me."
She said in an annoyed tone, and she get up to go to the bathroom, but I grab her back, kissing her deeply, leaving her gasping for air.

"I didn't even brush"
She said, throwing a pillow at me.

"You know,I want you in many ways I can't even put into words, anytime, even-"

"Just shut up and get ready for work"
She said already blushing.

"So beautiful,bell."

"I'm all yours today and we are going to be having s3x in the room,on the floor,in the car,on the couch and in the baathroom."
With that I drag her into the bathroom and I fucked her so hard that she can barely walk or move and I washed her,leaving her with the after glow.