Its Just ME

chapter 34

Livia's POV.

"Anything that happen always know that I love you "
He's yesterday statement is still running in my head .
What happened to him?
Why was he crying?
Why was he scared of loosing me?
And this drawer...
I stood up and walk to the drawer, pressing several PIN number but it was all wrong..
I'll just ask him if he comes back.
Just then my phone rings

"How are you doing, Jess?"

"I'm perfectly good,I have something to tell you,"
She said sounding so excited.

"Hmm, what is it?"
I asked

"It's your husband's birthday this weekend, did you know about it?"

"Oh my gosh!
I have no idea and he didn't even tell me."

"Yeah,he doesn't usually celebrate it.
He's just the business business type,so boring."
She said and I let out a laugh

"So what's your plan for him?"

"I really don't know,I will have to think about it."

"Yeah,sure!"
She said

"Thank you"
I said with a wide smile.

"Don't thank me,sis.
Okay I have to go,"
She said

"Okay dear, take care!"
I said

His freaking birthday?
Wow!
What should I give him, like what can I even afford to get him,a multi billionaire!

I entered the bathroom and....
OH MY GOOD GOD!!
I'm so so so foolish, how can I be so careless.
As a woman!
Shit shit shit
I'm so fucked up
Did you guys know why I'm so freaked out right now?!
IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS AND I HAVEN'T SEEN MY PERIOD!!!
What's wrong?
And I know that I've been eating a lil bit much these days,
And my cravings are high rate
Or I'm I... maybe..... just maybe....pre...
Noooooo,I can't just conclude like that.
But what if....
I don't know.
I can't handle this depression alone,I have to call my other-half. Aurora.

Aurora's POV.
I'm lying deep inside my Hot tub,my skin wet in the warm water, eyes close.
Recalling how my life have messed up these last few days. How lonely and confused I've become.
I took josh to livia, and I couldn't help but adore the sight of how she was extremely happy and crying at the same time, she hugged him for a long time, she gave multiple kisses on his face, body.
And he was also happy, they missed each other, I just stood there smiling and before I know it, livia is already onto me.
Whispering alot of thank yous to me.
Despite the huge guards surrounding this gigantic mansion I couldn't help but give it a tour,I wanted to see the house.
Excuse me
I said to livia that still drown in their emotional scenario.
There was elevator but I decided to take the stairs,I passed several rooms and all the rooms were locked, but I saw one room that was open and I peep to see what's there, and my eyes fell on a young, tanned sweaty skin. Damped thick fine unruly brown shoulder length hair, half naked, with only ash sweatpant hanging on his waist and -

"I don't really like people staring at me but I understand"
My thoughts were caught off when I heard  his exhausted croaky voice and I just crackled.

"Don't flatter yourself,I was just checking out the gym."
I said with a tight smile.

"Little Liar,!"
He chuckled, putting the exercise to a halt, and grabbing a little black towel

"Who are you?"
He ask

"Livia's friend, aurora".i said standing, folding my arms across my chest

"Aurora, that name"

"What?"

"I love it!"
He said and I can believe I was already blushing,
Just then he walk to me,so close, just a breath away.
And grab my waist, the action making me to touch, his bare chest hitting my boobs.

"What are you doing?"

"What do you want me to do?"
He asked, pinning his dark black eye, the contact making me feel different in a positive way.

"I have a boyfriend."
I voiced out but he doesn't seem to care.

"Cap!"

"I'm serious"

"Do I make you nervous?!"

"Not at all, I already told you to stop flattering yourself,my boyfriend is way attractive than you."
I said and he suddenly crash his lips on mine, kissing me so fast, tightening the grip on my waist. I clench my teeth together not giving him the access to my tongue, but he suddenly squeeze my butt and I gasp and without a second he dive his tongue in mouth, sucking on it.
Evan have kiss me many times but this....is ecstatic and about the way I'm moaning softly in his mouth the feeling is so euphoric.
He finally let go of my mouth and I was gasping for air.

"You just fucking kiss me"

"And you didn't stop me."

"I told you I've got a boyfriend"

"And here you are moaning inside my mouth, your tongue diggling dangling with mine, darling stop playing!"

"I...I.. was not"
I can't believe I'm stuttering

"You know what, you should be kissed often and that too...by someone who knows how,"
He said erotically, brushing his thumb on my lips.

"This... did not happen. So you'll shut your mouth."
I said and I push him, storming out of the room.

What is wrong with me?
He kissed me,I didn't even stop him..
I just cheated on Evan,
I'm so fucking ungrateful...

I ran downstairs, and I told livia that I have urgent work to do, with that I Left hurriedly.

On reaching my apartment I found out that the door was opened and I went in cautiously and Evan was just sitting on my couch.
My heart races but I masked it up, smiling.

"Hey,"
I Walk to him kissing him, but the feeling was different again but unexpectedly, he pull away from the kiss and I look at him with a confused look.

"I need to tell you something important"
He said with a low voice.

"What is it?!"

"My parents.... already settled an..."

"Uhuh????"

"Arrange marriage For me,so I.... I'm here to.... end-"

"Hey...hey... cut the crap,will you?"
I said with a broken voice,

"I'm serious"

"B...b... but I love you and you love me.... how... please don't do this to me....us"

"I really didn't want to hurt you but I have to obey my parents, and yes... I'll always love you, dear!"
He said wiping of a tear and I crash myself on him, hugging him tightly, and he did the same.
And I suddenly move away from him.

"Can't you speak for yourself? That you already have a girlfriend? huh?!
You'll just let them do what they want with your life? your own fucking life?"
I thrashed out at him, tears already shattered on my face,

"They are my parents, Aurora!"

"Aurora?
That's what you are calling now,huh!
Not baby,dear?!
You are a fucked up coward,a little momma's boy."

I-

"Just leave,.....I don't want to see you..... just go"

"Please I-"

"I SAID GET THE FUCK OUT!!
Just GO..."
I said and he left.
He left...
Our 5 years old relationship is gone,I never knew he was such a fucked up asshole,a waste of time.
I'm broken....
I love him..
I still love him, he's caring he's loving,he made me laugh, but he could not fight for me, for us, for the person he loves...

I sat on the floor, exhausted 4 bottle already,I wasn't crying but tears kept falling and all I want now was that kiss, that kiss hours ago kiss, from him,I don't even know name...
Liviaaaaaaa....I need you..... I'm so broken...... I'm alone....he left
Suddenly I heard my phone rings but I didn't bother to pickup.
And it rang again so I checked the name and it was her.
And before she could even say anything I beat her to it.

"Please can you come over? Now!"
I cried

"Are you okay?"
She asked and I started weeping.

"Hey, I'm coming right now. Don't cry, I'll be there."