Don Quixote

21

I think what people don't realize is how devastating it is to be single as a teenage girl.

Constantly asking yourself "why does no one want me?"

And it get worse when your friends all get boyfriends. I feel like in every girls life, at some point they've experienced this.

Trying everything to be noticed by men while others do absolutely nothing and everyone's trying to date them.

I've come to the conclusion I'm not desirable to men.

I have had a boyfriend. 1 boyfriend, who's friends all told him I was ugly and that he shouldn't date me so he got embarrassed and didn't want anyone to know he was dating me which resulted in us breaking up. Pathetic.

I attempted to tell Seoyeon about this and she told me she understood how I felt, even though I knew she didn't.

She prolly couldn't even remember the last time she didn't have a boy want her. Every time we went on Omegle it wasn't "what's your names?" It's what's her name. There was a time when all she complained about having too many guys and that she had all of them thinking she was being loyal to all of them and I just told her "I wish that was my problem."

She was always the one getting asked for her snap or getting flirted with and I genuinely didn't know why they wanted her and not me. Was I just not pretty enough?

Seoyeon had lost her virginity before me. I was really jealous. Not because I wanted to lose my virginity but because I wanted to prove I could.

I wanted to prove my was pretty enough for a man to want me to do that with me and if no one wanted it to meant i was ugly and unwanted.

All I wanted, was to be wanted.